Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

Julian Newman is searching for stability; Julian Newman wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for Julian Newman’s life. But Julian Newman’s efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, Julian Newman is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time Julian Newman reaches what Julian Newman believes to be a good balance, Julian Newman realizes Julian Newman wants something entirely different. Julian Newman would do well to become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

Julian Newman is sober and rather reserved and may even strike people as harsh and austere at times. Perhaps Julian was raised in an atmosphere of rigor and sobriety, and, as a result, grew up very fast. Julian has acquired a spirit of self-sufficiency, tend to be rather uncompromising, and have a touchy sense of Julian’s personal dignity and worth. It is almost as though Julian is fighting an inner battle with Julian’s father or a father figure. The psychological models Julian received from Julian’s father or a father figure as a result of Julian’s interaction and Julian’s own interaction with authority may not have played a major role in shaping Julian’s relationships with the outer world and society. Julian may thus have been forced to compensate for this lack with individual determination.

As a result, although Julian is skillful, meticulous, conscientious, and efficient, a lack of self-confidence and personal assurance sometimes makes Julian timid and hesitant. Julian sometimes feel as though Julian is only masquerading as a respectable, sober adult. Julian tend to be far too critical of Julian and rarely feel satisfied that Julian is living up to Julian’s ideal. These unnecessary guilt feelings may lead Julian to turn down the prominent career positions for which Julian is fully qualified. Julian is aware that early success is often short-lived and fragile and that time rewards those who know how to be patient and persistent, like Julian.

Insecurities could cause Julian Newman to crave order in his life and to prefer to do things according to a predetermined plan. Unfortunately, because his logic and vision tend to be somewhat short-sighted, it requires a great effort for him to adapt to a situation. He is rigid, might struggle to make friends easily, and are sometimes wary of relations with those he is most attracted to. He is a gifted worrywart.

Julian Newman is aware of the void and the vanity of existence. They are sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tend to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as their intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with their “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of themselves, they are sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feel an imperious need to cope with it.

This special consciousness Julian Newman has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for them at the outset. It is not easy for Julian Newman to recognize themselves in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so they sometimes find themselves forced to construct and assert their own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Lively and expressive, Julian Newman has a personality which is sometimes agitated but straightforward. Unconscious feelings of insecurity compel Julian to act and sometimes to seek the admiration of others. As a result, Julian is unable to bear idleness and routine, and Julian is in search of perpetual excitement. Julian’s reactions to others are highly individual and depend on the mood Julian is in at any given moment. A person of decision, a businessperson or an athlete, Julian often personifies boldness and impetuosity. Julian’s love life is liable to be fiery, as it obeys the imperatives of Julian’s desire for freedom and independence, and Julian’s need for change.

Julian Newman has a sensitive nature. Although Julian may sometimes have trouble controlling Julian’s emotional reactions, they are nevertheless a source of vital energy for a constructive passion and may make an extremely positive contribution to Julian’s career. In relations with other people, Julian is quite friendly; Julian willingly reaches out to people and knows how to listen to their desires and their problems.

Julian Newman has a nagging feeling of insecurity which affects their psychology and dampens their natural enthusiasm. Julian’s need to take action and assert themselves is sometimes disturbed by this gnawing fear.

Because Julian Newman is so sensitive and imaginative, they sometimes have trouble distinguishing dreams from reality. Although their bubbling imagination provides an abundant source of inspiration for creative or spiritual evolution, it tends to be less helpful and positive in matters that concern their self-assertion as responsible and self-sufficient. In a relationship, Julian Newman is extremely romantic and does not always see others the way they really are.

Love and Sensuality:

Julian Newman has fairly lofty amorous aspirations. The soulmate Julian Newman imagines for Julian Newman is brilliant and dazzling with an array of talents and beauty. However, the gap between Julian Newman’s splendid ideal and reality is sometimes wide. Julian Newman should be careful not to confuse Julian Newman’s romantic ideal with reality and become aware that Julian Newman’s tendency to project may be a way of fleeing from Julian Newman.

Julian Newman’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. Newman enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with Newman’s gaze riveted on the future, Newman is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

By turns forthright and inhibited, assertive and shy, provocative and timid, Julian Newman switches from mood to mood due to an inner conflict which is more or less unconscious. Julian Newman expresses contradictory desires and are difficult to live with on a daily basis. If Julian Newman is not careful, Julian Newman might make an inappropriate match – either with someone who is too overbearing and individualistic or someone who is weak and lacking character.

When it comes to love, celebrity Julian Newman needs honesty and complete trust. Newman is seeking someone who is worthy of Newman’s respect. Newman may meet a dynamic and compatible partner during a trip abroad or in rather unusual circumstances.

Cautious and reserved, Julian Newman is sometimes unwilling to open himself to others if he is not sure of being accepted. He will always hang back somewhat from his emotional urges, parceling out his expressions of affection, because he has learned – sometimes at his expense – that even the most harmonious relationships require some compromise. For Newman, “good fences make good neighbors,” and well-marked boundaries can prevent future suffering. Thus, even when he is in love, he remains fairly circumspect. When he finds himself attracted to a partner, he privately engages in a careful analysis of their personality and life story, endeavoring to know them profoundly, to see whether he is likely to be able to share his life and future with them. As a result of his sensitivity, Newman has a profound affinity for all of the arts. Music, literature, painting, and graphic arts are likely to enrich his existence and make it pleasant. He could progress in any career in which balance, order, and practicality predominate.

From the outside, celebrity Julian Newman seems to be detached and aloof, but on the inside they are an extremely complex individual, full of contradictions. Because they sometimes feel vulnerable emotionally, they try to control not only their own feelings and urges, but may also strive to manipulate those of their partners. They aspire to a profound and enduring spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning themselves and yielding to the other terrifies them. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because they are guarded and somewhat secretive, they tend to be suspicious and are especially uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although they are fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, they will not express their feelings unless they are subject to some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of their emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, they are likely to be attracted by stormy and complicated relationships.

Mental and Intellect:

Julian Newman’s mental aptitudes make him especially good at comparing, evaluating, and weighing information. This intellectual modus operandi has enabled him to develop an innate sense of values, both artistic and ethical, as well as a remarkable ability to relate to other people. Julian Newman’s appreciative, conciliatory attitude makes him a skillful diplomat able to untangle conflict situations deftly and with ease. In other situations, Julian Newman’s artistic spirit is sensitive to a wide variety of harmonies.

Julian Newman tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. His thoughts are usually structured, and his reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.

Julian Newman sometimes makes mistakes in judgment, and their understanding of things is not always in tune with social realities or prevailing opinion. Julian’s judgments tend to be hasty; their decisions are reckless. Moreover, Julian tends to overestimate their abilities and usually aims higher than might be realistic. Once an enterprise or project is underway, Julian may try to avoid obstacles by dodging certain duties.

Because Julian’s vision of the world differs somewhat from social realities, Julian should be extremely careful and scrupulous in regard to legal matters, in order to avoid any complications of that type. Julian is sometimes slightly dishonest in their relations; they may break promises or attempt to duck responsibility.

However, Julian should realize that such conduct toward other people is also a form of unconscious self-loathing. If Julian continues to behave in such a way, they are exposing themselves to the same lack of sincerity from their partners.

Julian Newman has a structured mind and penetrating intelligence, but their thought processes tend to be somewhat plodding. This slow pace may be the consequence of some failure or humiliation during their formative years. They are fairly inhibited and pessimistic and tend to doubt in themselves and their intellectual skills despite their undeniable gifts as a thinker. They should become aware that their thought patterns and habits are the sign that they are on the brink of a really big breakthrough which will give them an understanding of the complexity of things and phenomena; however, it will take time and effort.

Their mind is deep and accurate and is attracted by the essence of things and their fundamental structure. As a result, they are particularly suited to the study of mathematics, architecture, engineering, or perhaps even politics. Their contribution to society will probably be most lasting and effective in the field of knowledge and expertise. Whatever career they choose, they should learn to work alone, because they tend to be uncomfortable in some surroundings.

They will also have to learn to conquer their impatience, because they tend to waste time agonizing over deadlines and schedules. Moreover, a lack of self-confidence could cause them to be fairly conventional and respectful of time-honored ways. Instead, they should find the courage to question their convictions.