Aja Wilson practices restraining her emotions; she practices controlling her impulses and resisting them. Although it is not an easy apprenticeship, she wants to be able to bear strain with patience, endurance, and stamina. More than anyone else, she is aware of the need for a solid and stable foundation as a prerequisite to any effective action.

AJA WILSON

I have a paternal complex, and as a result, some trouble finding my identity. Perhaps my father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during my childhood, which deprived me of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because I lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, I was forced to protect myself against negative influences and find my own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to me as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with my evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber my mind or inhibit my developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for me to assert myself, and I tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because my authoritarian urges are mainly directed at myself rather than others, I sometimes feel guilty about my behavior. I judge myself severely, and sometimes punishes myself by setting difficult tasks for myself. Gradually, I should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

At the moment of your birth, the two celestial “lights” (the sun and the moon) were symmetrically aligned. This is a portent of harmony between the masculine and feminine archetypes, which is extremely beneficial. It is the source of balance and understanding between the two main psychological realms which may be said to compose the personality. You thus enjoy a positive complementarity and understanding between the conscious and unconscious aspects of your psyche, between your determination and your routines, between your drive for self-assertion and your receptivity, your ideal and your sensitivity. Your parents almost certainly reflected a positive image of the marriage relationship to you, and it is likely that they encouraged you to develop your own individuality. As a result, you were and are able to be comfortable with yourself as you are instead of striving to attain your parents’ ideal. This has definitely contributed to the maintenance of a good relationship with them and the rest of the family. In your emotional relationships with your peers, one of the effects of the masculine/feminine harmony is that the images your ego projects on the other are especially constructive. The bonds of the relationship are not felt to be constraints, the energy which flows between the two people is a source of mutual happiness, not regret. No major personal conflicts are projected onto the “other” – that is, the significant other.

Aja Wilson, because of the personality that is based in her mind, needs intellectual stimulation in order to feel fulfilled. She is always on the move, in search of new contacts, curious about all sorts of different subjects and enjoys conversation and communication. Due to her having such a wide variety of interests, however, she can be something of a dilettante, and her thinking may sometimes lack discipline.

Aja Wilson has a lively, agile, and sensitive intellect. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.

Aja Wilson has a romantic nature and is seeking a soulmate. The world of her emotions is warm and inviting, the expression of true kindness. Tenderness, grace, and mildness rule her sensitivity, which is aroused by contact with nature and thrills to the idea of a secure, stable home.

Aja Wilson’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. She enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, she is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Aja Wilson rides on waves of enthusiasm and idealism, in love she is dashing and uninhibited. She demands a great deal of her companion both intellectually and socially, dreaming of a brilliant partner who can give her thrilling life and outstanding and unusual success. Once she finds her one-in-a-million mate, she will eagerly support them. However, the dream is not foolproof, because her lack of good judgment and perspicacity may lead her to commit herself prematurely to someone who won’t keep these promises.

Aja Wilson is an innocent romantic who sometimes tends to live her life on the level of dreams rather than reality. She is fairly flexible in relation to feelings and emotions, and her character may change according to the tide of influences she receives. She may become dependent on the person she loves. Nurturing family could be one of her chief purposes in life.

Aja Wilson:

I am hypersensitive and tend to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of my first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. I am exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. I will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. I am sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. I usually hide my emotional reactions or do not even allow them to reach the level of my consciousness, in an effort to protect my sensitivity, which I see as my weak point. I am fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, I will disguise my strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside me, and I feel unworthy of the love which is lavished on me. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of my desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, my fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of my romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if you want to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify yourself emotionally, the defense mechanisms you have elaborated to make yourself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that you learn how to forget yourself occasionally in the other.

Aja Wilson has an ardent and amorous character, and her relationships are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, you are often more in love with the idea of love than with a partner. As a result, your love life may be subject to some instability. You are generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate you. Your greatest contradictions surface when an intimate relationship is established. Although you merge your ego entirely into the couple, you are likely to demand a total autonomy and liberty which are inimical to intimacy. If your partner charms and captivates you long enough, there is some possibility that they will form a more solid bond with you; otherwise, you are likely to yield to your need for novelty and fall under the spell of an entirely different person who exerts a new kind of charm for you.

Midlife may be a turning point for you from this point of view. Your contradictory attitude may in some ways hide a compulsion to reject and deny the bonds of dependency inherent to a love relationship. Your behavior enables you to remain aloof, to commit yourself only halfway without consciously admitting it to yourself, and to avoid feeling guilty if and when you lose interest. An insatiable appetite for novelty and exaltation sometimes keeps you from forming stable relationships. Indeed, you are tormented by the struggle between your undeniable need for affection and an equally imperious desire for personal progress and emancipation. As a result of this inner turmoil, your romantic aspirations are usually sabotaged sooner or later by your conviction that your partner has become an obstacle to your individual progress. Because you think of love as a restraint, you may even eventually consciously refuse any emotional approach to love interests. As an ascetic, you will try to deflect the love function from its natural target and use the energy and bliss it generates for other purposes, the process psychologists call sublimation. However, you are also likely to meet “the one” who inspires you to initiate a change in your behavior.

Aja Wilson is a complicated individual, full of contradictions. Because she sometimes feels vulnerable emotionally, she tries to control not only her own feelings and urges, but may also strive to manipulate those of her partners. She aspires to a profound and enduring spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning herself and yielding to the other terrifies her. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because she is guarded and somewhat secretive, she tends to be suspicious and is especially uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although she is fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, she will not express her feelings unless she is subject to some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of her emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, she is likely to be attracted by stormy and complicated relationships.

Aja Wilson has a fairly skeptical temperament which relies on remarkable analytic and critical faculties. She is sensitive and curious, a keen observer of facts who collects detailed information she will later pore over and analyze. This type of logical, rational mind is extremely efficient for elaborating methods or sorting and classifying information. However, she sometimes lacks flexibility or broad-mindedness.

Aja Wilson tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. Her thoughts are usually structured, and her reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.

Aja Wilson has a lively and agile spirit. She is curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences with an attitude free of dogmatism and prejudice. As a result of her great mental vitality, she tends to have an opinion on every subject, but she does not always have the patience necessary to examine a subject in-depth. She enjoys manipulating expressions and concepts and amuse herself with witty remarks, satire, and controversy. If she learned to control her flow of words and elaborate her thoughts more, she could make a talented communicator. Because she is often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform her ideas, she is sometimes misunderstood. She is often blind to the rashness of her judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around her. If she were to succeed in disciplining her mind somewhat, she would have innumerable opportunities to apply her communications skills to a great career. However, she would do well to be careful of her nerves.