Larry English is searching for stability. He wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for his life. But his efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, he is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time he reaches what he believes to be a good balance, he realizes he wants something entirely different. He should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.
Larry English is affectionate by nature, and love plays a decisive and central role in his life. He is a charmer who needs to love and be loved. Aware of his personal magnetism and the power it gives him, he will make subtle changes in himself in order to attract positive attention. He is sophisticated and pleased to savor a lifestyle he sees as a consummate art.
Larry English is aware of the void and the vanity of existence. He is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force, and he tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life. He prefers to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as his intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with his “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of himself, Larry English is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feels an imperious need to cope with it. This special consciousness Larry English has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for him at the outset. It is not easy for Larry English to recognize himself in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so he sometimes finds himself forced to construct and assert his own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.
Larry English is curious by nature, and strives to learn as much as possible. He is always on the move, seeking out new people and experiences. Because of this, he is well-informed about many different subjects. He enjoys talking to people and finds communication to be fascinating. However, Larry does have a tendency to be a bit of a dilettante, and his thinking may sometimes lack discipline.
Larry English’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, he does not always avail himself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although he enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, his thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. He is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste his nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, his feelings sometimes blur his objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause him to make errors in judgment.
Larry English has a sensitive personality. He may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. He is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in his behavior may be explained by emotional problems he may have experienced in infancy: his mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.
Larry English is emotional and tends to react suddenly and excessively as soon as his sensitivity is touched. Although he feels that his independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental values, he is sometimes frustrated by his need to rely on his family or friends. Moreover, he does not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as his own. Likewise, he is sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if he feared that it would doom him to eternal dependency. His ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship he had with his mother or a mother figure. Although he was dependent on them, they may have rejected him. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which his sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are liable to form. To ward off his feelings of dependency, Larry English sometimes tends to become destructive. Based on denial, his reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.
Larry English is looking for the ideal love and tends to idealize his friends and lovers. A bizarre character, he may prefer to dream of his soulmate instead of making love to one; he is more in love with the idea of love than anything else. His idealism may hide a fear of truly committing himself to a relationship; he tries to intellectualize everything. In time, two options will seem clear to him: an amorous friendship based on shared ideas and intellectual exchange, or an open relationship, free of all constraints except mutual respect.
Larry English’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of his emotional urges and somewhat wary of his feelings, he tries to rid himself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.
Larry English is bubbly, breezy, and attractive. He will not settle down readily. Although to protect himself from his own unconscious he would benefit from the support and structure a stable, solid mate would provide, he is likely to prefer someone just as unstructured as he is – or perhaps a younger partner. However, if his need to lead an original life leads him to meet an unusual person with whom he establishes a relationship more like friendship than love, he may share a sparkling, full intellectual life.
Larry English is mysterious and exerts a strange magnetic attraction. He is irresistibly drawn to people who break his heart and to troublesome love affairs. His disappointment often causes him to veer between extreme love and extreme indifference. The conflict between his sensual desires and his “angelic”, idealized lover is apparent in a series of challenging romantic relationships that run the risk of going tragically wrong.
From the outside, Larry English seems to be detached and aloof, but on the inside he is an extremely complex individual, full of contradictions. Because he sometimes feels vulnerable emotionally, he tries to control not only his own feelings and urges, but may also strive to manipulate those of his partners. He aspires to a profound spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning oneself and yielding to the other terrifies him. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because he is guarded and somewhat secretive, he tends to be suspicious and are especially uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although he is fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, he will not express his feelings unless he is subject to some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of his emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, Larry English is likely to be attracted by stormy and complicated relationships.
Larry English considers the input from his subjectivity and emotions as static which he tries to tune out to go straight to the essence of knowledge. As a result, regardless of his field of study, he tries to obtain perspective. He will elaborate a thought on the basis of fairly cold, abstract logic, supported by sober, concise, and immaculate reasoning. His choice areas of study could be mathematics, philosophy, legislation, or political science. Ideologies, theories, and any other system of reasoning could serve as “food for thought” for him.
Larry English expresses his thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. He is fairly extroverted and eager to discover and understand the outer world. An idealist, Larry looks forward to a bright future but is sometimes subjective and reckless.
Your behavior in relations with other people is usually kind and benevolent. You exert a certain charm, know how to speak persuasively and convincingly, and are adept at smoothing the asperities of what you have to say when it is necessary. This aspect of your personality is a great advantage to you socially; however, in situations where you must either compete or deal with direct conflict and hostility, you may be somewhat at a loss for how to behave. You have an undeniable gift for oratory which could be applied to a communications-related occupation or to artistic expression (as a stage or screen actor). Writing and dance, two other arts which associate expression and movement, might also be fields in which you would excel.