Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

Ava Kolker’s confidence in herself sometimes falters, and she might try to compensate for this weakness by insisting on her authority over others. With the people she is emotionally committed to, the same nagging feelings of insecurity prevent her from expressing her generosity and love fully; her extreme independence sometimes hides an inability to abandon herself and a lack of assurance.

Ava Kolker has a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding her identity. Perhaps her father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during her childhood, which deprived her of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because she might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, she was forced to protect herself against negative influences and find her own system in order to grow and feel secure.

Although this system was quite useful to her as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with her evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber her mind or inhibit her developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for her to assert herself, and she tends to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because her authoritarian urges are mainly directed at herself rather than others, she sometimes feels guilty about her behavior. She judges herself severely, and sometimes punishes herself by setting difficult tasks for herself. Gradually, she should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Ava Kolker is an ardent free thinker and individualist who is convinced that her most precious basic values are freedom and independence. She has thrown off what she perceives as the burden of the convention and customs of her social class and adopted an innovative lifestyle. Her passionate convictions, bordering on proselytism, sometimes trouble her relationships, as she may be an uncompromising partner. She would do well to learn to recognize her own limitations and accept the responsibilities she has to other people, or she is liable to find herself continually embroiled in conflicting relationships.

The roots of her somewhat extreme behavior probably lie in her relationship with her father or her teachers in childhood and adolescence. For one reason or another, she may have rejected the paternal image or refused to identify with her father, in the same way as she now refuses to adopt any values related to convention, tradition, or widespread usage. In every important life decision she makes as an adult, she is forced to rely on herself to elaborate the appropriate behavior, and the limits she must impose on her desires in relation to reality and the law.

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Because Ava’s personality is ruled by her mind, she needs intellectual stimulation in order to feel fulfilled. She is always on the move, in search of new contacts. Curious about all sorts of different subjects, she takes care to inform herself about many things. She enjoys conversation and communication and hopes to be admired for her talent and wit. Due to her having such a wide variety of interests, however, she can be something of a dilettante, and her thinking may sometimes lack discipline.

Ava Kolker’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.

Ava Kolker maintains strong ties with her past, and it often seems difficult for her to open her heart to new people. Ava’s love affairs might exist on the surface level, because her lust and sensual desire rarely turn into a need to understand, protect, and care for the other. Moreover, it is difficult for Ava to meet partners who combine the ideals of the tender parent and the great lover.

Ava Kolker has a sensitive personality. She may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. She is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in her behavior may be explained by emotional problems she may have experienced in infancy: her mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.

Ava Kolker is an expansive, affable, and communicative associate. Indeed, some people find her generous almost to a fault! She gives of herself and her resources unstintingly. Paradoxically, there are times when she is self-focused. She reacts instinctively, without taking the trouble to analyze a given situation, and are prone to misjudge. As a result, her everyday life may be riddled with a whole variety of practical problems. Indeed, she senses a conflict between her social life and her family and will sometimes find it hard to fulfill herself in both spheres at the same time. Her attitude toward her private life may inhibit her ambitions for social or career expansion; at worst, society (the law) may impinge on her private life. She should be careful not to project her personal problems onto her partner. If, instead, the two of them analyzed the problem, she might be able to find opportunities to resolve it together.

Ava Kolker’s sensitivity and emotions are sometimes in conflict with her instincts. This inner discord makes her a fairly complicated relationship partner, and her behavior sometimes strikes others as mysterious or baffling. She is liable to switch from one attitude to the opposite. Sexuality is an important part of her life, and her relationships are most often motivated by her desires. Nevertheless, due to her unconscious inner battle, she does not often succeed in reconciling and fulfilling her emotional and sexual needs. Due to the strength of her instincts, passion may overwhelm her and drag her into situations she cannot always control, which intermingle erotic ecstasy and anguish, guilt, and aggressiveness.

Love and Sensuality:

Aware that she was taught to experience love in a certain way by her family, social class, or religion, Ava is determined to experiment with a new style. Her idealistic aspirations may be a form of escapism. They encourage her to cast off conventional romantic practices and customs and embark on new adventures.

Ava Kolker’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of her emotional urges and somewhat wary of her feelings, she tries to rid herself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

Whimsical, charming, impressionable, Ava might question her feelings. She is inclined to abrupt reversals of her feelings, and her love life could present some upsets. Actually, she finds the idea of committing herself and being tied down to a static relationship repugnant. She feels it would deprive her forever of excitement and novelty. As a result, she is likely to marry several times, unless she chooses an adventurer or a wanderer as a companion, and she lives a thrilling life together.

As Ava Kolker’s freedom and independence are all-important to her, her inner balance is disturbed as soon as her emotions are involved and the time comes to make a commitment. This ambivalent attitude is responsible for the various crises that rocked her romantic relationships in her youth. Maturity and experience should help her to overcome this phobia, allowing her to enjoy an independent social life while at the same time fulfilling her need to love and be loved in the sanctuary of her home.

Cautious and reserved, Ava Kolker is sometimes unwilling to open herself to others if she is not sure of being accepted. She will always hang back somewhat from her emotional urges, parceling out her expressions of affection, because she has learned – sometimes at her expense – that even the most harmonious relationships require some compromise. For Ava, “good fences make good neighbors,” and well-marked boundaries can prevent future suffering. Thus, even when she is in love, she remains fairly circumspect. When she finds herself attracted to a partner, she privately engages in a careful analysis of their personality and life story, endeavoring to know them profoundly, to see whether she is likely to be able to share her life and future with them. As a result of her sensitivity, she has a profound affinity for all of the arts. Music, literature, painting, and graphic arts are likely to enrich her existence and make it pleasant. She could progress in any career in which balance, order, and practicality predominate.

Ava Kolker has a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. She is emotive and hypersensitive, making her especially vulnerable emotionally, since she is sometimes overwhelmed by her feelings and affects. Although she seeks an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom she could maintain blissful, smooth relations, she is sometimes met with disillusionment. Because her rather excessive sensitivity and her need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge her judgment and discernment, so she sometimes forms extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When she meets someone, she falls under the enchantment of her dream of ideal love and cannot keep herself from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, she yields to another of her characteristic urges and loses herself in the individual who is so dear to her, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find herself as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, her psyche is constructed in such a way as to make her sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before she takes on any major commitments, she should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates her intense love, for she may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. Her tendency to believe in her illusions may mark her as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for her to find a different object for her affections, or a form of sublimation, because she tends to be so disappointed by her great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of her imagination procure artistic refinement for her, and she loves the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because her sensitivity also makes it easy for her to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties her peers are struggling with, she might also find it rewarding to commit herself to social work.

Mental and Intellect:

Curious, skeptical, and pragmatic, Ava Kolker has a shrewd, inquisitorial mind. Ava always tries to detect the hidden mechanisms and processes behind the phenomena observed. As a result, Ava has developed an ability to detect the truth behind appearances and the cause behind the effect. Although this way of thinking is based on a certain logic, and there is evidence of structure and cohesion in Ava’s deductive approach, it is not always purely intellectual. Indeed, its sources lie in a certain empiricism, in facts which have been experienced, so it is open to improvement. For this reason, its fields of application are highly diverse, although research in the hard sciences, psychology, and metaphysics seem to be the best career choices.

Ava Kolker expresses her thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. She is fairly extroverted and eager to discover and understand the outer world. An idealist, she looks forward to a bright future but is sometimes subjective and reckless.

Ava Kolker has a lively and agile spirit. Ava is curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences without either dogmatism or prejudice. As a result of the liveliness of Ava’s mind, Ava tends to have an opinion on every subject, but Ava does not always have the patience or perspective necessary to examine a subject and gain in-depth knowledge of it.

Ava enjoys manipulating expressions and concepts and amuses herself with witty remarks, satire, and controversy. If Ava learned to control her flow of words better and elaborate her thoughts more, Ava might make a talented communicator.

Because Ava is often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform her ideas, Ava is sometimes misunderstood. Ava is often blind to the rashness of her judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around Ava. If Ava were to succeed in disciplining her mind somewhat, Ava would have innumerable opportunities to apply her communications skills to a great career. However, Ava would do well to be careful of her nerves.

Ava Kolker has a mind with an insatiable appetite for knowledge and an exceptional ability to learn. Without trying too hard, she could probably accumulate encyclopedic erudition. Her intellectual curiosity is such that it is sometimes a drawback. She sometimes has trouble limiting herself to a single subject without being distracted by a multitude of others. Discipline and a conscious effort at organization will be of great help to her if she wants to deepen her learning and judgment.

Once her intellectual faculties are disciplined, she is likely to succeed in any of the following fields: teaching, historical scholarship, advertising, writing (journalistic or literary), travel, etc. – in fact, communication in any form.