Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

Nicole Row is an individualistic person who sometimes has a lack of confidence. This can challenge her relationships and inhibit the expression of her generosity and love.

Nicole Row has a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding her identity. Perhaps her father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during her childhood, which deprived her of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because she might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, she was forced to protect herself against negative influences and find her own system in order to grow and feel secure.

Although this system was quite useful to her as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with her evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber her mind or inhibit her developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for her to assert herself, and she tends to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because her authoritarian urges are mainly directed at herself rather than others, she sometimes feels guilty about her behavior. She judges herself severely, and sometimes punishes herself by setting difficult tasks for herself. Gradually, she should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Nicole Row is an ardent free thinker and individualist who is convinced that her most precious basic values are freedom and independence. Nicole has thrown off what she perceives as the burden of the convention and customs of her social class and adopted an innovative lifestyle. Nicole’s passionate convictions, bordering on proselytism, sometimes trouble her relationships, as Nicole may be an uncompromising partner. Nicole would do well to learn to recognize her own limitations and accept the responsibilities Nicole has to other people, or Nicole is liable to find herself continually embroiled in conflicting relationships.

The roots of Nicole’s somewhat extreme behavior probably lie in Nicole’s relationship with Nicole’s father or Nicole’s teachers in childhood and adolescence. For one reason or another, Nicole may have rejected the paternal image or refused to identify with Nicole’s father, in the same way as Nicole now refuses to adopt any values related to convention, tradition, or widespread usage. In every important life decision Nicole makes as an adult, Nicole is forced to rely on herself to elaborate the appropriate behavior, and the limits Nicole must impose on Nicole’s desires in relation to reality and the law.

Nicole Row is extremely sensitive and receptive and tends to live in osmosis with her surroundings. Her individuality almost seems to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over her, and she sometimes finds it difficult to communicate her feelings to other people or engage in any structured, analytical thought. This may stem from a misunderstanding with her teachers when she was a child. Unable to understand their disciplinary measures or authority, she may have withdrawn into herself in self-defense. It was then that she constructed her rich inner life, the part of her they could not invade, and cut many of her ties to the outside.

Because she enjoyed indulging in her inner life, it may have been difficult for her to acquire an objective vision of reality. As a result, even today, she tends to create imaginary problems for herself, regardless of the objective facts outside. Although her imagination is a source of inspiration and intuition, her fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for her to grasp the essence of her dreams and share them with other people. She is not at all combative, and this tends to hinder her efforts to fit into society and assert herself productively.

She is likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but her refusal to abandon her unattainable dreams is a psychological trap she has fallen into without realizing it. She must understand that by running away from her obligations and commitments, she only increases the feelings of guilt and incompetence which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once she frees herself from this pernicious process, she has a great deal of potential for fulfilling herself in the outer world, either by devoting herself to some sort of social work or by cultivating her considerable artistic talents.

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Freedom and independence are primary values for Nicole Row. Nicole Row expends a great deal of energy to ensure that her private life expresses them. To avoid being tied down, Nicole Row tends to be skittish when it comes to any profound involvement in a relationship. As a consequence, Nicole Row might intellectualize her emotions and feelings and feel as though she can live more easily on friendship than on love. Extremely socially-minded but idealistic, Nicole Row almost certainly feels an affinity with the ideals of some social reform movement. Nicole Row’s imagination looks to the future.

Nicole Row’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.

Nicole Row maintains strong ties with her past, and it often seems difficult for her to open her heart to new people. Her love affairs might exist on the surface level, because her lust and sensual desire rarely turn into a need to understand, protect, and care for the other. Moreover, it is difficult for her to meet partners who combine the ideals of the tender parent and the great lover.

Nicole Row has a sensitive personality. She may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. She is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in her behavior may be explained by emotional problems she may have experienced in infancy: her mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.

Nicole Row is an expansive, affable, and communicative associate. Indeed, some people find her generous almost to a fault! She gives of herself and her resources unstintingly. Paradoxically, there are times when she is self-focused. She reacts instinctively, without taking the trouble to analyze a given situation, and are prone to misjudge. As a result, her everyday life may be riddled with a whole variety of practical problems. Indeed, she senses a conflict between her social life and her family and will sometimes find it hard to fulfill herself in both spheres at the same time. Her attitude toward her private life may inhibit her ambitions for social or career expansion; at worst, society (the law) may impinge on her private life. She should be careful not to project her personal problems onto her partner. If, instead, the two of them analyzed the problem, they might be able to find opportunities to resolve it together.

Nicole Row’s sensitivity and emotions are sometimes in conflict with her instincts. This inner discord makes her a fairly complicated relationship partner, and her behavior sometimes strikes others as mysterious or baffling. She is liable to switch from one attitude to the opposite. Sexuality is an important part of her life, and her relationships are most often motivated by her desires. Nevertheless, due to her unconscious inner battle, she does not often succeed in reconciling and fulfilling her emotional and sexual needs. Due to the strength of her instincts, passion may overwhelm her and drag her into situations she cannot always control, which intermingle erotic ecstasy and anguish, guilt, and aggressiveness.

Love and Sensuality:

Nicole Row has fairly lofty amorous aspirations. The soulmate Nicole imagines for herself is brilliant and dazzling with an array of talents and beauty. However, the gap between Nicole’s splendid ideal and reality is sometimes wide. Nicole should be careful not to confuse her romantic ideal with reality and become aware that her tendency to project may be a way of fleeing from herself.

Nicole Row’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of her emotional urges and somewhat wary of her feelings, she tries to rid herself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

With both dependent and independent tendencies, Nicole Row is torn between a strong thirst for liberty and a penchant to be somewhat submissive. Although this inner contradiction tinges her personality with an odd and captivating charm, it is also the source of ambivalent behavior and many of her disappointments in love. She will have to find a viable solution to her contradictory desires, because otherwise, she will be subject to baffling and dangerous infatuations which will leave her full of regrets and recrimination when the enchantment fades.

Nicole Row is driven by a need for admiration, and her romantic involvement is sometimes dictated by her vanity or even by her pride. She needs a partner she can be proud of, who will respect and adore her. Nevertheless, her marriage or long-term relationship will be very rewarding, potentially complementing her rise on the social or career ladder.

Nicole Row has the fiery, importunate nature of a fervent lover. Indeed, affairs of the heart are one of her main purposes in life. Her personal charm and magnetism give her nearly irresistible powers of seduction, and nearly every one of her well-aimed attempts at conquest leads to the fulfillment and satisfaction of her desires. Due to her impulsiveness and impatience to initiate new encounters, her approach to members of the other sex may sometimes lack delicacy.

From the outside, Nicole Row seems to be detached and aloof, but on the inside she is an extremely complex individual, full of contradictions. Because she sometimes feels vulnerable emotionally, she tries to control not only her own feelings and urges, but may also strive to manipulate those of her partners. She aspires to a profound and enduring spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning herself and yielding to the other terrifies her. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because she is guarded and somewhat secretive, she tends to be suspicious and is especially uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although she is fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, she will not express her feelings unless she is subject to some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of her emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, she is likely to be attracted by stormy and complicated relationships.

Mental and Intellect:

Nicole Row’s intellect, which is simultaneously subjective and sensitive, acute and intuitive, always practical and deeply rooted in human experience, predisposes her to a people-oriented activity. With her memory and imagination combined with her shrewdness, she would be a gifted project manager, businesswoman, or scholar of history or literature.