Bonang Matheba is searching for stability. She wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for her life. But her efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, she is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time she reaches what she believes to be a good balance, she realizes she wants something entirely different. She should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

You are a person who often has trouble asserting yourself. Because you lacked a father figure during your childhood, you were forced to develop your own system in order to survive. This system, which was helpful in the past, has now become a hindrance to your growth. You use psychological defense mechanisms to protect yourself from negative influences and find yourself in difficult situations. However, because these mechanisms are now habitual, they sometimes hinder your ability to function properly. You also have authoritarian tendencies, which are mainly directed inward. This can sometimes lead to feelings of guilt and self-judgment. You should gradually develop a strong inner discipline and learn to face problems head-on in a mature way.

You are very sensitive and receptive, and you tend to live in osmosis with your surroundings. Your individuality almost seems to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over you, and you sometimes find it difficult to communicate your feelings to other people or engage in any structured, analytical thought. This may stem from a misunderstanding with your teachers when you were a child. Unable to understand their disciplinary measures or authority, you may have withdrawn into yourself in self-defense. It was then that you constructed your rich inner life, the part of you they could not invade, and cut many of your ties to the outside. Because you enjoyed indulging in your inner life, it may have been difficult for you to acquire an objective vision of reality. As a result, even today, you tend to create imaginary problems for yourself, regardless of the objective facts outside. Although your imagination is a source of inspiration and intuition, your fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for you to grasp the essence of your dreams and share them with other people. You are not at all combative, and this tends to hinder your efforts to fit into society and assert yourself productively. You are likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but your refusal to abandon your unattainable dreams is a psychological trap you have fallen into without realizing it. You must understand that by running away from your obligations and commitments, you only increase the feelings of guilt and incompetence which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once you free yourself from this pernicious process, you have a great deal of potential for fulfilling yourself in the outer world, either by devoting yourself to some sort of social work or by cultivating your considerable artistic talents.

Bonang Matheba generally tends to be motivated by activities which apply to social needs. She tends to give the best of herself in difficult situations which require crucial choices. Her ability to concentrate and her gift for solving problems by deductive reasoning are her chief resources in crisis situations or at turning points in her life.

Bonang Matheba is curious by nature, and loves to learn new things. She is always on the move, seeking out new people and experiences to broaden her knowledge. She is easy to talk to and is interested in everyone she meets, hoping to gain a better understanding of them. Because of her wide range of interests, she can be a bit of a dilettante, lacking focus and discipline in her thinking.

Bonang Matheba is extremely sensitive and perceptive. She luxuriates in tenderness and gentleness more than passion. Because she abhor any form of violence and is disturbed by the absence of harmony, she has developed a tact and diplomacy which make her relations with others smooth and easy.

Bonang Matheba is optimistic and happy to be alive. She is cheerful, expansive, and pleasant, and gives of herself and her belongings unstintingly. This positive psychological outlook is the result of a happy childhood and especially an extremely beneficial maternal influence in infancy. She is quite likely to be a professional success; her vision of the world is perfectly adapted to prevailing opinion, and her urges and desires for personal expansion usually elicit a positive reaction from society. By old age, her good reputation and prominence may have earned her fame.

Although your demeanor is cool and distant, you are extremely sensitive. In some cases, your rather austere and rigid behavior and your refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. You have spells of melancholy in which you do not feel worthy of being loved and tend to forbid yourself any emotional fulfillment whatsoever. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. It is difficult for your inner self to be detached from this past life, and you sometimes have trouble reconciling the image you have of yourself as an adult with the one you acquired back then. The idea you have of yourself as an individual is related to the image your parents projected onto you as a child. Nevertheless, the past is history, and you are now an adult. Through self-work, you can rid yourself of these phantoms. You have the ability to overcome your mistakes, as well as great endurance and will power to achieve your goals. Nevertheless, you must not repress your sensitivity in order to succeed.

Bonang Matheba’s intellect is sometimes haunted by disturbing philosophical anguishes and a need for security. As a result, her adaptation to life and surroundings is somewhat complicated. Certain inhibitions may sometimes inhibit her intellectual activity.

You are emotional and tend to react suddenly and excessively as soon as your sensitivities are touched. Although you value your independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency, you can sometimes be frustrated by your need to rely on your family or friends. Additionally, you do not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as your own. Likewise, you may be angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if you feared that it would doom you to eternal dependency. Your ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship you had with your mother or a mother figure. Although you were dependent on them, they may have rejected you. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which your sensitivities come into play and emotional bonds are likely to form. To ward off your feelings of dependency, you sometimes tend to become destructive. Based on denial, your reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.

Bonang Matheba enjoys captivating people with the elegance and ease of her expression. She is a witty and engaging flirt, an avid player of the game of love. As a result, the history of her affections is liable to be episodic, a long series of chapters about conquests or fleeting love affairs. She may carry on some love relationships by writing letters.

Bonang Matheba’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. She enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, she is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Bonang Matheba is carefree, dreamy, and eccentric. She is eminently adaptable and easygoing, but hardly reliable, because she lacks a sense of logic. Her appetite for change and novelty makes her somewhat unfitted for a confining committed life. Only her family, and possibly children, if she chooses to have them, will be able to ground her to any real degree.

Bonang Matheba indulges in puppy love romances or allows the circumstances to decide what she wants. Her personality is sometimes emotional and ambivalent. She should be careful not to rush into marriage, for she may soon long for the single life again if she hasn’t chosen a partner who’s the best fit.

You are hypersensitive and tend to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of your first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. You are exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. You will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. You are sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. You usually hide your emotional reactions or do not even allow them to reach the level of your consciousness, in an effort to protect your sensitivity, which you see as your weak point. You are fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, you will disguise your strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside you, and you feel unworthy of the love which is lavished on you. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of your desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, your fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of your romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if you want to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify yourself emotionally, the defense mechanisms you have elaborated to make yourself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that you learn how to forget yourself occasionally in the other.

Bonang Matheba’s intellect is simultaneously subjective and sensitive, acute and intuitive, always practical and deeply rooted in human experience. Her memory and imagination combined with her shrewdness would make her a gifted project manager, businesswoman, or scholar of history or literature.

Bonang Matheba does not express her thoughts and ideas smoothly or easily. She tends to be subjective, seeking to know herself better through a process of introversion.

Bonang Matheba’s intellectual faculties and wit are sometimes slowed down because she is turned inward. Because she tends to be oriented toward others, she rarely tries to communicate with them for the simple pleasure of doing so. Indeed, she sometimes feels misunderstood. Moreover, it seems difficult for her to express the complexity of her inner perceptions.

Bonang Matheba has a lively and agile spirit. She is curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences without either dogmatism or prejudice. As a result of the liveliness of her mind, she tends to have an opinion on every subject, but she does not always have the patience or perspective necessary to examine a subject and gain in-depth knowledge of it. She enjoys manipulating expressions and concepts and amuses herself with witty remarks, satire, and controversy. If she learned to control her flow of words better and elaborate her thoughts more, she might make a talented communicator. Because she is often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform her ideas, she is sometimes misunderstood. She is often blind to the rashness of her judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around her. If she were to succeed in disciplining her mind somewhat, she would have innumerable opportunities to apply her communications skills to a great career. However, she would do well to be careful of her nerves.