Blu senses that it has instincts which may be dangerous, and it tries to restrain and control them. As a result, it may adopt a fairly ascetic lifestyle. Blu’s attitude, which denies the vital importance of the most archaic and darkest forces within it, is not entirely innocuous. If Blu hopes for a more harmonious development, it will do well to realize that instincts can be tamed; they do not react positively to being trampled.

You were never able to find your place in the world. You may have lacked the security and guidance of a paternal figure, or you may have had a difficult relationship with your own father. As a result, you had to protect yourself from negative influences and forge your own system in order to grow and find security. Although this system was helpful to you as a child, it has now settled into a groove so deeply that it interferes with your development. Psychological defense mechanisms and habits which were once useful now restrict your mind or inhibit your growth. As a result, in some situations it is difficult for you to assert yourself and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed inward, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself harshly, and sometimes punish yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and develop the strength to face the problems of life in a detached and mature way.

You are sober and rather reserved and may even strike people as harsh and austere at times. Perhaps you were raised in an atmosphere of rigor and sobriety, and, as a result, grew up very fast. You have acquired a spirit of self-sufficiency, tend to be rather uncompromising, and have a touchy sense of your personal dignity and worth. It is almost as though you were fighting an inner battle with your father or a father figure. The psychological models you received from your father or a father figure as a result of your interaction and your own interaction with authority may not have played a major role in shaping your relationships with the outer world and society. You may thus have been forced to compensate for this with individual determination. As a result, although you are skillful, meticulous, conscientious, and efficient, a lack of self-confidence and personal assurance sometimes makes you timid and hesitant. You sometimes feel as though you are only masquerading as a respectable, sober adult. You tend to be far too critical of yourself and rarely feel satisfied that you are living up to your ideal. These unnecessary guilt feelings may lead you to turn down the prominent career positions for which you are fully qualified. You are aware that early success is often short-lived and fragile and that time rewards those who know how to be patient and persistent, like you.

You have a fertile inner life and a prolific imagination, but your energy resources are not always sufficient to follow through on your multitude of dreams. You tend to live in osmosis with your environment, and effort and action take a heavy toll on you. Usually, you understand phenomena and events intuitively, without really making any effort; so you are not in the habit of disciplining or shaping your thought processes. Like your thoughts, your personality is rather amorphous and disorganized. As a result of this lack of structure, you may have some trouble asserting your individuality and making some personal contribution to society through your career. Your tendency to shut out reality and dream impossible dreams, like your refusal of responsibility and duty, may be a source of some difficulty for you.

You are acutely aware of the void and the vanity of existence. Sometimes you are disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and you tend to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as your intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with your “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of yourself, you are sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of your instincts and feels an imperious need to cope with them. This special consciousness you have been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for you at the outset. It is not easy for you to recognize yourself in any social or narcissistic models, or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so you sometimes find yourself forced to assert and express your own identity in a way which may strike your contemporaries as strangely intense if not eccentric.

Blu is pragmatic and realistic. She evaluates people and things according to practical, common-sense criteria instead of abstract concepts. A sensualist and lover of luxury, she has a penchant for material comfort and takes great joy in physical pleasures. In relation to others, socially and privately, she likes to build stable relationships and is not especially fond of change. Her warmth gives her a great deal of ease when meeting people, as clients (for business purposes), but her close relations also benefit from this affection and her ability to express her feelings naturally and openly.

Blu is extremely sensitive and perceptive. She luxuriates in tenderness and gentleness more than passion. Because she abhor any form of violence and is disturbed by the absence of harmony, she has developed a tact and diplomacy which make her relations with others smooth and easy.

My sensitivity and emotions are sometimes in conflict with my instincts. This inner discord makes me a fairly complicated relationship partner, and my behavior sometimes strikes others as mysterious or baffling. I am liable to switch from one attitude to the opposite. Sexuality is an important part of my life, and my relationships are most often motivated by my desires. Nevertheless, due to my unconscious inner battle, I do not often succeed in reconciling and fulfilling my emotional and sexual needs. Due to the strength of my instincts, passion may overwhelm me and drag me into situations I cannot always control, which intermingle erotic ecstasy and anguish, guilt, and aggressiveness.

Blu enjoys captivating people with the elegance and ease of her expression. She is a witty and engaging flirt, an avid player of the game of love. As a result, the history of her affections is liable to be episodic, a long series of chapters about conquests or fleeting love affairs. She may carry on some love relationships by writing letters.

Blu’s birth chart indicates that she has an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Blu distrusts her emotional urges and somewhat wary of her feelings, so she tries to rid herself of all partiality and get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

Blu enjoys life to the fullest, finding gaiety and sensuality in all that she does. Her simple tastes often border on the rustic, but she adapts very well to new situations. A lover of all things culinary, Blu is skilled at creating a warm, comfortable atmosphere in her home.

Blu has a certain innocent charm. Without making any special efforts, she is often solicited and has a number of pleasurable little romances. Fortunately, she is fairly tolerant, because she tends to be attracted to young people who may not be especially loyal or serious. It is better that she not rely on them.

You are hypersensitive and tend to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of your first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. You are exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. You will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. You are sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. You usually hide your emotional reactions or do not even allow them to reach the level of your consciousness, in an effort to protect your sensitivity, which you see as your weak point. You are fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, you will disguise your strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside you, and you feel unworthy of the love which is lavished on you. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of your desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, your fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of your romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if you want to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify yourself emotionally, the defense mechanisms you have elaborated to make yourself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that you learn how to forget yourself occasionally in the other.

You are an ardent and amorous person, and your relationships are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, you are often more in love with the idea of love than with a partner. As a result, your love life may be subject to some instability. You are generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate you. Your greatest contradictions surface when an intimate relationship is established. Although you merge your ego entirely into the couple, you are likely to demand a total autonomy and liberty which are inimical to intimacy. If your partner charms and captivates you long enough, there is some possibility that they will form a more solid bond with you; otherwise, you are likely to yield to your need for novelty and fall under the spell of an entirely different person who exerts a new kind of charm for you.

Midlife may be a turning point for you from this point of view. Your contradictory attitude may in some ways hide a compulsion to reject and deny the bonds of dependency inherent to a love relationship. Your behavior enables you to remain aloof, to commit yourself only halfway without consciously admitting it to yourself, and to avoid feeling guilty if and when you lose interest. An insatiable appetite for novelty and exaltation sometimes keeps you from forming stable relationships. Indeed, you are tormented by the struggle between your undeniable need for affection and an equally imperious desire for personal progress and emancipation. As a result of this inner turmoil, your romantic aspirations are usually sabotaged sooner or later by your conviction that your partner has become an obstacle to your individual progress. Because you think of love as a restraint, you may even eventually consciously refuse any emotional approach to love interests. As an ascetic, you will try to deflect the love function from its natural target and use the energy and bliss it generates for other purposes, the process psychologists call sublimation. However, you are also likely to meet “the one” who inspires you to initiate a change in your behavior.

Blu is somewhat plodding but realistic and pragmatic. Because Blu is chiefly preoccupied with the practical aspects of things, Blu is especially apt to develop more efficient production concepts. Although Blu’s good judgment and common sense provide Blu with an excellent ability to handle the tangible world (Blu certainly is clever, and can quickly assess the tangible value of things), Blu’s thought processes might be relatively impervious to abstract concepts and spiritual awakenings.

Blu tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. His thoughts are usually structured, and his reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.