Bec Winnel has written a thoughtful article on the topic of consciousness and the ideal of self. While the article is dense and requires a great deal of thought to fully understand, it is an excellent introduction to the topic for those unfamiliar with it.
Bec Winnel has confidence in herself sometimes falters, and she might try to compensate for this weakness by insisting on her authority over others. With the people she is emotionally committed to, the same nagging feelings of insecurity prevent her from expressing her generosity and love fully; her extreme independence sometimes hides an inability to abandon herself and a lack of assurance.
Bec Winnel has a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding her identity. Perhaps her father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during her childhood, which deprived her of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because she might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, she was forced to protect herself against negative influences and find her own system in order to grow and feel secure.
Although this system was quite useful to her as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with her evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber her mind or inhibit her developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for her to assert herself, and she tends to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because her authoritarian urges are mainly directed at herself rather than others, she sometimes feels guilty about her behavior. She judges herself severely, and sometimes punishes herself by setting difficult tasks for herself. Gradually, she should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.
Bec Winnel has great strength of character. Her courage and endurance enable her to accomplish even extremely arduous tasks. Although she sometimes behaves impulsively, she generally knows how to plan out an effective strategy, and, as a result, she reaches her goals without meeting any major obstacles. Her forcefulness gives her certain leadership skills, which she may implement to creative and constructive ends.
Bec Winnel has a taste for luxury and magnificence, for a dazzling social life and a distinguished career. When things are going well for her, she tends to think of herself as the center of the universe, an attitude that those close to her don't always appreciate. Although she is quite likely to succeed in her ambition to become wealthy and popular and lead a remarkable life in the outer world, her lack of moderation and overweening self-confidence exposes her to some danger. Her exaggerated optimism could create difficulties for her by causing her to make errors in judgment.
Bec Winnel enjoys sharing and has a constant need for contact with other people. She tends to be free and uninhibited in her relations with other people, rarely allowing herself to be influenced by convention or prevailing opinion; she associates with whomever she pleases. This attitude makes her life refreshing and exciting, and she is never bored. In career terms, Bec Winnel is quite gifted for any field related to communication, where her intellectual singularity and lively wit would make her an amazing hit. She would also be likely to succeed in any activity where the work required a multidisciplinary approach: teaching, advertising, politics, etc.
Bec Winnel has an extremely sensitive and receptive nature, and she tends to live in osmosis with her surroundings. Her individuality almost seems to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over her, and she sometimes finds it difficult to communicate her feelings to other people. This tide of emotion is a source of inspiration and intuition, but her fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for her to grasp the essence of her dreams and share them with other people. Bec Winnel is not at all combative, and this tends to hinder her efforts to fit into society and assert herself productively.
She is likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but her refusal to abandon her unattainable dreams is a psychological trap she has fallen into without realizing it. She must understand that by running away from her obligations and commitments, she only increases the feelings of guilt which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once she free herself from this pernicious process, she has a great deal of potential for fulfilling herself in the outer world, either by devoting herself to some sort of social work or by cultivating her considerable artistic talents.
Bec Winnel has a good balance between her need for movement and her tendency to be sedentary. She is just as likely to adapt to situations which require outbursts of initiative as to those which demand patience and perseverance.
Bec Winnel has a personality which is sometimes agitated but straightforward. Unconscious feelings of insecurity compel her to act and sometimes to seek the admiration of others. As a result, she is unable to bear idleness and routine, and she is in search of perpetual excitement. Her reactions to others are highly individual and depend on the mood she is in at any given moment. A person of decision, a businessperson or an athlete, she often personifies boldness and impetuosity. Her love life is liable to be fiery, as it obeys the imperatives of her desire for freedom and independence, and her need for change.
Bec Winnel has a sensitive personality. She may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. She is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in her behavior may be explained by emotional problems she may have experienced in infancy: her mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.
Bec Winnel has an emotional and tend to react suddenly and excessively as soon as her sensitivity is touched. Although she feels that her independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental values, she is sometimes frustrated by her need to rely on her family or friends. Moreover, she does not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as her own. Likewise, she is sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if she feared that it would doom her to eternal dependency. Her ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship she had with her mother or a mother figure. Although she was dependent on them, they may have rejected her. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which her sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are likely to form. To ward off her feelings of dependency, she sometimes tends to become destructive. Based on denial, her reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.
Bec Winnel due to her extreme sensitivity and irrepressible imagination, sometimes has trouble distinguishing dreams from reality. Although her imagination can be an abundant source of inspiration for creative or spiritual evolution, it tends to be less helpful and positive in matters that concern earning a decent living out in the real world. In a relationship, she is extremely romantic and does not always see others the way they really are. She has elegant tastes and art and beauty are one of her chief pleasures in life.
Bec Winnel has a sensitivity and emotions that can be in conflict with her instincts. This inner discord makes her a fairly complicated relationship partner, and her behavior sometimes strikes others as mysterious or baffling. She is liable to switch from one attitude to the opposite. Sexuality is an important part of her life, and her relationships are most often motivated by her desires. Nevertheless, due to the strength of her instincts, passion may overwhelm her and drag her into situations she cannot always control, which intermingle erotic ecstasy and anguish, guilt, and aggressiveness.
Bec Winnel has a great love and sensuality for life. She is passionate about everything she does and enjoys every moment.
Bec Winnel's personality is dominated by love and affectivity. She is subject to love at first sight, and her gallant heart sometimes leaps forth impulsively; her sensitivity is lively and powerful. Amorous rivalries and conquests may be a recurring theme throughout her life.
Bec Winnel's birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. She enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, she is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.
Bec Winnel has a mind that is full of disorder and illusion. Nevertheless, she has a great capacity for devotion. Somewhat elevated, she will rush into wild dreams or throw herself into love with a fury. If she doesn’t appeal to her reason, she will err just as radically and find herself married to a good-for-nothing or disappointing person. She is more likely to be married happily with someone who has artistic or spiritual tendencies.
Bec Winnel has a tendency to abstract herself in her emotional relationships. She secretly feels some fear in relation to romantic partners, and this weakness might make her dependent on a fairly authoritarian partner who would attempt to rule her completely. If she is not careful, her arguments may have an impact on the children, if she chooses to have them, and the household atmosphere may become somewhat tense and unpleasant.
Bec Winnel may be characterized by strong sensual and affectionate urges which drive her to seek pleasure. Her need for romantic fulfillment may compel her to marry, because she also seeks the legal and social legitimacy the institution of marriage confers on an emotional bond. Indeed, the household is liable to be prosperous and even opulent, as if this offered further evidence that she had indeed achieved success. However, privately, she might be less committed to certain obligations and duties. At worst, she might deny the commitments that her optimism and expansiveness made her rush into too soon. If this were to be the case, the outward image of the couple's success (wealth and comfort, etc.) would only be a façade which compensated for its emotional impoverishment and failure. Sooner or later, this hypocrisy might provoke a full-blown conflict. A second possibility is that a psychic incompatibility may gradually take root, pitting her romantic nature against the prerogatives of her career.
Bec Winnel has a strong mental and intellect. She is able to think critically and solve problems.
Bec Winnel has an intuitive thinker. She does not reason things out through a long, articulate, logical discourse; instead, she seize the visions or insights that spontaneously flash into her consciousness. She thus has a form of immediate knowledge of various phenomena which is based neither on reasoning nor on any elaborate thought process or method. As a result, if she is an extrovert, she will possess an inventive, innovative spirit gifted for improvisation. If she is an introvert, her mind will be an abundant source of personal inner truths.
Bec expresses her thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. She is fairly extroverted and eager to discover and understand the outer world. An idealist, she looks forward to a bright future but is sometimes subjective and reckless.
Bec Winnel has an undeniable gift for oratory which could be applied to a communications-related occupation or to artistic expression (as a stage or screen actor). Writing and dance, two other arts which associate expression and movement, might also be fields in which she would excel.