Bayashi searches for stability. He wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for his life. But his efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, he is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time he reaches what he believes to be a good balance, he realizes he wants something entirely different. Bayashi should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.
Bayashi is vigorous and energetic. She has an immense need to assert her individuality and to rush into action. Her attitudes and actions are actually motivated by an unconscious desire for power, which incites her to rush into action despite the frequent threat of risk and danger. Because she has very little control over her energy and impulses, she sometimes injures herself bodily or starts arguments without really having meant to do so. She has a short temper and would do well to learn to control her recklessness, which exposes her to a great deal of unnecessary conflict and adversity. She is also likely to start projects which are not really appropriate to her, only to be forced to quit soon after. Before she makes any important decision, she must learn to stop and ask herself if what she is about to do is really positive for her.
Bayashi has a taste for luxury and magnificence, for a dazzling social life and a distinguished career. When things are going well for her, she tends to think of herself as the center of the universe, an attitude that those close to her do not always appreciate. Although she is quite likely to succeed in her ambition to become wealthy and popular and lead a remarkable life in the outer world, her lack of moderation and overweening self-confidence expose her to some danger. Her exaggerated optimism could create difficulties for her by causing her to make errors in judgment.
Bayashi has a profound and fertile inner life and a prolific imagination, but her energy resources are not always sufficient to follow through on and accomplish her multitude of dreams. She tends to live in osmosis with her environment, and effort and action take a heavy toll on her. Usually, she understands phenomena and events intuitively, without really making any effort; so she is not in the habit of disciplining or shaping her thought processes. Like her thoughts, her personality is rather amorphous and disorganized. As a result of this lack of structure, she may have some trouble asserting her individuality and making some personal contribution to society through her career. Her tendency to shut out reality and dream impossible dreams, like her refusal of responsibility and duty, may be a source of some difficulty for her.
Bayashi generally tends to be motivated by activities which apply to social needs. She tends to give the best of herself in difficult situations which require crucial choices. Her ability to concentrate and her gift for solving problems by deductive reasoning are her chief resources in crisis situations or at turning points in her life.
Bayashi is a gentle and sensitive person. She is sociable and devoted to others, and her childhood had a strong influence on her psyche. She still identifies with vivid childhood memories; they are the basis for her reveries, for her extreme sensitivity, and for habits which she may be slow to break. However, she will thrive in the shelter of a family setting, soothed by the presence of a spouse and children. She is fond of security and routine; being somewhat impressionable and anxious, she may have trouble adjusting to situations which are unfamiliar.
Bayashi’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.
Bayashi has a sensitive personality. She may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. She is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in her behavior may be explained by emotional problems she may have experienced in infancy: her mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.
Bayashi thinks that due to your sensitivity and irrepressible imagination, you sometimes have trouble distinguishing dreams from reality. Although your bubbling imagination provides an abundant source of inspiration for creative or spiritual evolution, it tends to be less helpful and positive in matters that concern your self-assertion as responsible and self-sufficient. In a relationship, you are extremely romantic and do not always see others the way they really are.
Bayashi watches you closely, sensing your reluctance to open up. You are a secretive person, preferring to keep your feelings to yourself. Sexuality is a prominent element in your life, and your relationships, which are usually passionate, are motivated by your desires. You like to understand the hidden side of people, their secret or unconfessed motivations. You would thus find a career which placed you in contact with troubled people especially rewarding.
Bayashi has a romantic nature and is seeking a soulmate. The world of her emotions is warm and inviting, the expression of true kindness. Tenderness, grace, and mildness rule her sensitivity, which is aroused by contact with nature and thrills to the idea of a secure, stable home.
Bayashi’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. She enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, Bayashi is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.
Bayashi is inhibited as an adolescent and still unsure of how to express her feelings. She is sensitive and discreet and the epitome of devotion and self-denial. The way she went about cutting the umbilical cord with her parents will play a vital role in her destiny and may be the cause of a late marriage. Bayashi tends to be withdrawn, but she will energetically perform any chore for those she loves. An excellent helpmate, she will adapt and devote herself body and soul to the one she chooses. Family life should reveal a hidden side of her personality.
Bayashi is fairly fiery with regard to her feelings and emotional involvement. She is sometimes flooded with a tide of contradictory sensations and impressions, and her affairs may be a series of whims and sudden changes of heart. She is more attracted by the transitory than the definitive, more by young people than by experienced ones. But once her need for tenderness is fulfilled, she may change entirely. Because she herself has no idea what she really wants, she is sometimes ready to engage in a folly, but she may also flee. Were she to be forced into marriage suddenly, her household would be an unhappy one. In this case, her in-laws would be liable to be a thorny subject.
You are hypersensitive and tend to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of your first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. You are exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. You will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. You are sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. You usually hide your emotional reactions or do not even allow them to reach the level of your consciousness, in an effort to protect your sensitivity, which you see as your weak point. You are fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, you will disguise your strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside you, and you feel unworthy of the love which is lavished on you. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of your desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, your fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of your romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if you want to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify yourself emotionally, the defense mechanisms you have elaborated to make yourself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled.
You are an ardent and amorous person, and your relationships are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, you are often more in love with the idea of love than with a partner. As a result, your love life may be subject to some instability. You are generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate you. Your greatest contradictions surface when an intimate relationship is established. Although you merge your ego entirely into the couple, you are likely to demand a total autonomy and liberty which are inimical to intimacy. If your partner charms and captivates you long enough, there is some possibility that they will form a more solid bond with you; otherwise, you are likely to yield to your need for novelty and fall under the spell of an entirely different person who exerts a new kind of charm for you.
Midlife may be a turning point for you from this point of view. Your contradictory attitude may in some ways hide a compulsion to reject and deny the bonds of dependency inherent to a love relationship. Your behavior enables you to remain aloof, to commit yourself only halfway without consciously admitting it to yourself, and to avoid feeling guilty if and when you lose interest. An insatiable appetite for novelty and exaltation sometimes keeps you from forming stable relationships. Indeed, you are tormented by the struggle between your undeniable need for affection and an equally imperious desire for personal progress and emancipation. As a result of this inner turmoil, your romantic aspirations are usually sabotaged sooner or later by your conviction that your partner has become an obstacle to your individual progress. Because you think of love as a restraint, you may even eventually consciously refuse any emotional approach to love interests. As an ascetic, you will try to deflect the love function from its natural target and use the energy and bliss it generates for other purposes, the process psychologists call sublimation. However, you are also likely to meet “the one” who inspires you to initiate a change in your behavior.
Bayashi’s mental aptitudes make her especially good at comparing, evaluating, and weighing information. This intellectual modus operandi has enabled her to develop an innate sense of values, both artistic and ethical, as well as a remarkable ability to relate to other people. Her appreciative, conciliatory attitude makes her a skillful diplomat able to untangle conflict situations deftly and with ease. In other situations, her artistic spirit is sensitive to a wide variety of harmonies.
Bayashi tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. His thoughts are usually structured, and his reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.
You have a lively and agile spirit, but you tend to apply your mental abilities in a somewhat haphazard and disorderly way. You are curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences with an attitude free of either dogmatism or prejudice. Your extremely lively mind leads you to have an opinion on every subject. Although you enjoy manipulating expressions and concepts and amuses others and yourself with witty remarks, your conversations could collapse into argument and conflict. Because you are often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform your ideas, you are sometimes misunderstood. You are often blind to the rashness of your judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around you. Actually, your overriding need to assert yourself as an individual sometimes defeats discussion and prevents you from listening to the other person fairly. But if you were to succeed in disciplining your mind somewhat, you would have innumerable opportunities to apply your communications skills to a great career. Moreover, you should be careful of your nerves, which are fairly high-strung. Any physical fitness activity would be beneficial; an Eastern discipline such as yoga or Tai-chi-chuan could teach you how to relax and improve control of your nervous and mental energies.
Bayashi has a mind with an insatiable appetite for knowledge and an exceptional ability to learn. Without trying too hard, she could probably accumulate encyclopedic erudition. Her intellectual curiosity is such that it is sometimes a drawback. She sometimes has trouble limiting herself to a single subject without being distracted by a multitude of others. Discipline and a conscious effort at organization will be of great help if she wants to deepen her learning and judgment. Once her intellectual faculties are disciplined, she is likely to succeed in any of the following fields: teaching, historical scholarship, advertising, writing (journalistic or literary), travel, etc: – in fact, communication in any form.