There is a fundamental contradiction or opposition at the core of my personality, but it does not shatter my integrity. However, it causes my inner world to be complex, divided, or even torn, without ever being totally dissociated, because every thought and action is a source of unification. As a result, intellectually I am a talented syncretist. I am able to see the link between heterogeneous and diverse elements which do not appear to be related in the least. I can bring about surprising reconciliation, create unexpected bonds, combine beliefs which seem mutually incompatible.
My imaginative powers also flow from the division in my psyche and are evidenced by inspirations, visions, and abilities which exceed the context of logic and reasoning. I allow myself to be guided by irrational phenomena like foreshadowing or premonitions, which well up from the depths of my being. I am more of a medium than an intuitive, because intuition requires a clear consciousness of reality. I am borne along by currents and tides of knowledge and live in symbiosis with forces which overwhelm me. In fact, it is because of this relative passivity that I am more or less a medium, because I wish merely to perceive what surrounds me; I have no wish to impose my will. Although this attitude endows me with great potential for productivity, it may also become dangerous, if I find myself overpowered by forces I can never totally control. I tend to perceive things as undifferentiated; I do not always see the world as an organized, structured, hierarchical entity. Instead, I am sensitive to energy flows, to invisible forces which I perceive and try to interpret. My consciousness knows no bounds, and I do not feel confined by either space or time. But the image of the infinite imprinted on my imagination has a tendency to manifest itself with a lack of definition, in most of my thoughts and acts.
In relation to other people, I usually demonstrate warmth and humanism. I am a fairly pleasant companion, although my sensitivity can be annoying at times. I tend to identify with my friends to a great degree, instead of remaining apart and empathetic. In fact, I am capable of losing myself in another person at times. I should take time to reflect upon the quality of what I bestow on others and on whom I bestow it. I would doubtless come to the conclusion that my devotion is motivated by guilt feelings; my giving is a way of escaping from myself, and my broad tolerance sometimes merely hides a weak character. My basic aptitude for compassion could inspire me to relieve human misery, either privately or professionally. Hospital or prison work would not frighten me, because I understand them as closed environments which are open in terms of the inner adventures and journeys they house. Inner adventures are one thing I understand.
In my ideal, I feel capable of easing the worst suffering, but sometimes as I help others overcome their problems, I am also trying to face up to my collective unconscious – that is, the final product of all my failures to assert myself, from childhood right up to adulthood. Because of my hypersensitivity, I am a fairly delicate person. I tend to go through sorrowful or depressive phases, long psychic tunnels where my anguishes lurk. I would be wise to withstand them instead of trying to escape. If I could detect what triggered my lack of confidence in my unconscious, I might be healed.
Sabrina Quesada has high social aspirations. She believes that by gaining total control of her intellect, feelings, and instincts, she can achieve them.
Sabrina’s personality develops mainly in the shelter of the home. Sabrina is attached to her family, her heritage, and her past.
At the time of Sabrina Quesada’s birth, her rising sign was located in Libra (the Scales), while the sun was passing through the sign of Pisces (the Fish). A summary of the various clues mentioned above provide her personality profile. The following key words capture the essence of her character and indicate certain contradictions which may be sources of tension:
Sociability – Emotionalism – Adaptability – Pliancy – Emotion – Humility and reserve – Tolerance – Idealism – Peaceful disposition – Sense of harmony – Intuition – Worldliness – Premonition.
She is torn by a deep inner conflict between her intellectual, rational, methodical side and a more romantic, emotional, sensitive tendency. Her spontaneous urges and feelings are often restrained by her fussy, perfectionist reasoning; her idealistic ambitions and fantasies are stopped short by the moral and social considerations imposed by her intellect.
Conversely, her analytical skills and critical judgments might be at odds with her emotionalism and impressionability. She must work to make these two influences mutually comprehensible, to achieve, upon maturity, a well-balanced personality enriched by opposing elements. The most promising way to resolve the conflict is by moderating her sensitivity, developing her decision-making capacities, and channeling her energy. Without stifling her intuition and imagination, she must be wary of her tendency to escape into a dream world.
Born in the three days prior to the new moon’s appearance, Sabrina is said to be of the “balsamic moon” type. This soli-lunar configuration gives her a spiritualistic character closely attached to generous humanitarian ideals. She is sometimes sorely tried to limit herself to the narrow scope of individual ambition.
Indeed, she aims for a humanitarian ideal which would include the outcasts and the unfortunate. She fervently hopes the meek will inherit the earth. To bring about this ideal, she is likely to seize every resource placed at her disposal: physical effort, money (if she has it), speech, her writings, and her poetic or artistic talents. However, she should be wary of her unconscious guilt feelings.
Actually, there is no reason for her to devote herself to her mission entirely; a simple daily effort should suffice to express her philosophy and free her conscience. Usually, the three days preceding the new moon will be time in the monthly lunar cycle most favorable to her activities and her general energy level.
