Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:
LaurDIY is fairly individualistic, preferring to work on her own projects independently. A lack of confidence may sometimes create challenges in relationships. A lack of self-esteem may also sometimes inhibit the full expression of her generosity and love.
LaurDIY has a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding her identity. Perhaps her father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during her childhood, which deprived her of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because she might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, she was forced to protect herself against negative influences and find her own system in order to grow and feel secure.
Although this system was quite useful to her as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with her evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber her mind or inhibit her developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for her to assert herself, and she tends to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because her authoritarian urges are mainly directed at herself rather than others, she sometimes feels guilty about her behavior. She judges herself severely, and sometimes punishes herself by setting difficult tasks for herself. Gradually, she should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.
LaurDIY’s personality and behavior are liable to be disrupted by a contradiction between the masculine and feminine archetypes ruling her psyche. Because her sensitivity is in conflict with her determination, her attitude and performance may be moody, fluctuating, and uncertain. Usually, LaurDIY has the feeling she has to make superhuman efforts to succeed in assuaging her yearnings and fulfilling her ambitions. LaurDIY’s unconscious, sensitive side often disapproves of her conscious endeavors and stealthily works to defeat them, causing crucial omissions, mistakes, and gaps which effectively sabotage her plans. In LaurDIY’s relationships, the images she builds up and projects on the other are contradictory. As a result, any bond, even if it is pleasant and positive, also grates on her nerves. LaurDIY finds it dissatisfying and irritating at the same time.
LaurDIY is an ardent free thinker and individualist who is convinced that their most precious basic values are freedom and independence. They have thrown off what they perceive as the burden of the convention and customs of their social class and adopted an innovative lifestyle. Their passionate convictions, bordering on proselytism, sometimes trouble their relationships, as they may be an uncompromising partner. They would do well to learn to recognize their own limitations and accept the responsibilities they have to other people, or they are liable to find themselves continually embroiled in conflicting relationships.
The roots of their somewhat extreme behavior probably lie in their relationship with their father or their teachers in childhood and adolescence. For one reason or another, they may have rejected the paternal image or refused to identify with their father, in the same way as they now refuse to adopt any values related to convention, tradition, or widespread usage. In every important life decision they make as an adult, they are forced to rely on themselves to elaborate the appropriate behavior, and the limits they must impose on their desires in relation to reality and the law.
LaurDIY is extremely sensitive and receptive and tends to live in osmosis with surroundings. LaurDIY’s individuality almost seems to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over LaurDIY, and LaurDIY sometimes find it difficult to communicate LaurDIY’s feelings to other people or engage in any structured, analytical thought. This may stem from a misunderstanding with LaurDIY’s teachers when LaurDIY were a child. Unable to understand their disciplinary measures or authority, LaurDIY may have withdrawn into LaurDIYself in self-defense. It was then that LaurDIY constructed LaurDIY’s rich inner life, the part of LaurDIY they could not invade, and cut many of LaurDIY’s ties to the outside.
Because LaurDIY enjoyed indulging in LaurDIY’s inner life, it may have been difficult for LaurDIY to acquire an objective vision of reality. As a result, even today, LaurDIY tend to create imaginary problems for LaurDIYself, regardless of the objective facts outside. Although LaurDIY’s imagination is a source of inspiration and intuition, LaurDIY’s fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for LaurDIY to grasp the essence of LaurDIY’s dreams and share them with other people. LaurDIY are not at all combative, and this tends to hinder LaurDIY’s efforts to fit into society and assert LaurDIYself productively.
LaurDIY are likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but LaurDIY’s refusal to abandon LaurDIY’s unattainable dreams is a psychological trap LaurDIY have fallen into without realizing it. LaurDIY must understand that by running away from LaurDIY’s obligations and commitments, LaurDIY only increase the feelings of guilt and incompetence which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once LaurDIY free LaurDIYself from this pernicious process, LaurDIY have a great deal of potential for fulfilling LaurDIYself in the outer world, either by devoting LaurDIYself to some sort of social work or by cultivating LaurDIY’s considerable artistic talents.
LaurDIY has an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. LaurDIY is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as LaurDIY’s intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with LaurDIY’s “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of LaurDIY, LaurDIY is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feels an imperious need to cope with it.
This special consciousness LaurDIY has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for LaurDIY at the outset. It is not easy for LaurDIY to recognize LaurDIY in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so LaurDIY sometimes finds LaurDIY forced to construct and assert LaurDIY’s own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.
Adaptation and Sensitivity:
Because LaurDIY’s personality is ruled by her mind, she needs intellectual stimulation in order to feel fulfilled. She is always on the move, in search of new contacts. Curious about all sorts of different subjects, she takes care to inform herself about many things. She enjoys conversation and communication and hopes to be admired for her talent and wit. Due to her having such a wide variety of interests, however, she can be something of a dilettante, and her thinking may sometimes lack discipline.
LaurDIY has a lively and curious intelligence, the very opposite of empty rhetoric and studiousness. LaurDIY is agile and adaptable and can not only analyze difficult situations objectively but also demonstrate a profound comprehension when faced with a psychological problem.
LaurDIY has a sensitive nature. Although LaurDIY may sometimes have trouble controlling emotional reactions, they are nevertheless a source of vital energy for a constructive passion and may make an extremely positive contribution to LaurDIY’s career. In relations with other people, LaurDIY is quite friendly; LaurDIY willingly reaches out to people and knows how to listen to their desires and their problems.
Optimistic and happy to be alive, LaurDIY is a cheerful, expansive, pleasant associate to have. LaurDIY is extremely generous (sometimes to a fault!) and gives of herself and her belongings unstintingly. This positive psychological outlook is the result of a happy childhood and especially an extremely beneficial maternal influence in infancy. LaurDIY is quite likely to be a professional success; her vision of the world is perfectly adapted to prevailing opinion, and her urges and desires for personal expansion usually elicit a positive reaction from society. By old age, her good reputation and prominence may have earned her fame.
Although LaurDIY’s demeanor is cool and distant, she is extremely sensitive. In some cases, her rather austere and rigid behavior and refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. She has spells of melancholy in which she does not feel worthy of being loved and tends to forbid herself any emotional fulfillment. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. It is difficult for her inner self to be detached from this past life, and she sometimes has trouble reconciling the image she has of herself as an adult with the one she acquired back then. The idea she has of herself as an individual is related to the image her parents projected onto her as a child. Nevertheless, the past is history, and she is now an adult. It should be easy for her to rid herself of these phantoms through self-work. She has the ability to overcome her mistakes, as well as great endurance and will power to achieve her goals. Nevertheless, she must not repress her sensitivity in order to succeed.
LaurDIY’s intellect is sometimes haunted by disturbing philosophical anguishes and a need for security. As a result, LaurDIY’s adaptation to life and surroundings is somewhat complicated. Certain inhibitions may sometimes inhibit LaurDIY’s intellectual activity.
Love and Sensuality:
LaurDIY has a romantic nature and is seeking a soulmate. The world of her emotions is warm and inviting, the expression of true kindness. Tenderness, grace, and mildness rule her sensitivity, which is aroused by contact with nature and thrills to the idea of a secure, stable home.
LaurDIY’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. LaurDIY enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with LaurDIY’s gaze riveted on the future, LaurDIY is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.
Always riding on waves of enthusiasm and idealism, LaurDIY is dashing and uninhibited. They demand a great deal of their companion both intellectually and socially, dreaming of a brilliant partner who can give them a thrilling life and outstanding and unusual success. Once they find their one-in-a-million mate, they will eagerly support them. However, the dream is not foolproof, because their lack of good judgment and perspicacity may lead them to commit themselves prematurely to someone who won’t keep these promises.
LaurDIY is gentle and timorous, preferring tenderness to wild passion. LaurDIY’s ideal partner would be a person who is kind and affectionate. A warm and secure home life will bring LaurDIY fulfillment, and LaurDIY will devote themselves, body and soul, to their family.
LaurDIY may be characterized by strong sensual and affectionate urges which drive her to seek pleasure. Her need for romantic fulfillment may compel her to marry, because she also seeks the legal and social legitimacy the institution of marriage confers on an emotional bond. Indeed, the household is liable to be prosperous and even opulent, as if this offered further evidence that she had indeed achieved success. However, privately, she might be less committed to certain obligations and duties. At worst, she might deny the commitments that her optimism and expansiveness made her rush into too soon. If this were to be the case, the outward image of the couple’s success (wealth and comfort, etc.) would only be a façade which compensated for its emotional impoverishment and failure. Sooner or later, this hypocrisy might provoke a full-blown conflict. A second possibility is that a psychic incompatibility may gradually take root, pitting her romantic nature against the prerogatives of her career.
Mental and Intellect:
Powerfully ruled by LaurDIY’s determination and vital needs, her intellectual abilities come to the forefront when her purpose is to communicate her ideal and plot her action or strategy. She can be both logical and astute and have gifts for theorizing but may sometimes lack perspective.
LaurDIY expresses their thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. They are fairly extroverted and eager to discover and understand the outer world. An idealist, they look forward to a bright future but are sometimes subjective and reckless.