Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:
Kalani is searching for stability; she wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for her life. But her efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, she is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time she reaches what she believes to be a good balance, she realizes she wants something entirely different. She would do well to become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.
Kalani has a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding her identity. Perhaps her father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during her childhood, which deprived her of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because she might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, she was forced to protect herself against negative influences and find her own system in order to grow and feel secure.
Although this system was quite useful to her as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with her evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber her mind or inhibit her developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for her to assert herself, and she tends to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because her authoritarian urges are mainly directed at herself rather than others, she sometimes feels guilty about her behavior. She judges herself severely, and sometimes punishes herself by setting difficult tasks for herself. Gradually, she should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.
Kalani Hilliker is fairly strong-willed, and is mindful of going about her purposes with maximum efficiency. When she relates to other people, she sometimes has trouble expressing her emotions, but she does have a lively sensitivity and is capable of lasting passion. As she grows older, she is quite likely to come into her own and acquire great intellectual and spiritual wisdom. Her honesty, integrity, and sense of duty will win her recognition and appreciation. Passing time will be a very important factor in her destiny, and her greatest accomplishments will guarantee her stability and prosperity. Although she is not especially enterprising, she will move into a high career position as soon as she feels sure of her abilities.
Kalani Hilliker has a profound and fertile inner life and a prolific imagination, but their energy resources are not always sufficient to follow through on and accomplish their multitude of dreams. They tend to live in osmosis with their environment, and effort and action take a heavy toll on them. Usually, they understand phenomena and events intuitively, without really making any effort; so they are not in the habit of disciplining or shaping their thought processes. Like their thoughts, their personality is rather amorphous and disorganized. As a result of this lack of structure, they may have some trouble asserting their individuality and making some personal contribution to society through their career. Their tendency to shut out reality and dream impossible dreams, like their refusal of responsibility and duty, may be a source of some difficulty for them.
Adaptation and Sensitivity:
An eloquent speaker and compulsive charmer, Kalani has a powerful personal magnetism which may sometimes make her seem arrogant or smug. She cares a great deal about her reputation and will try hard to be admired and appreciated by the people around her. Fond of social events and parties, Kalani likes to be the host, to entertain and charm a captive audience of guests. Indeed, Kalani has special dramatic and artistic talents of the caliber necessary for success in film, theater, fashion, or art in general. Kalani enjoys displaying her generosity, but she also displays a short temper at times; Kalani is easily offended. Her partner will have to be a brilliant person, strong and sure of themselves, devoted to Kalani and capable of enhancing her reputation.
Optimistic and happy to be alive, Kalani Hilliker is a cheerful, expansive, pleasant associate to have. She is extremely generous (sometimes to a fault!) and gives of herself and her belongings unstintingly. This positive psychological outlook is the result of a happy childhood and especially an extremely beneficial maternal influence in infancy. Kalani is quite likely to be a professional success; her vision of the world is perfectly adapted to prevailing opinion, and her urges and desires for personal expansion usually elicit a positive reaction from society. By old age, her good reputation and prominence may have earned her fame.
Kalani Hilliker is emotional and tends to react suddenly and excessively as soon as her sensitivity is touched. Although she feels that her independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental values, she is sometimes frustrated by her need to rely on her family or friends. Moreover, she does not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as her own. Likewise, she is sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if she feared that it would doom her to eternal dependency. Her ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship she had with her mother or a mother figure. Although she was dependent on them, they may have rejected her. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which her sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are liable to form. To ward off her feelings of dependency, she sometimes tend to become destructive. Based on denial, her reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.
Due to Kalani Hilliker’s sensitivity and irrepressible imagination, she sometimes has trouble distinguishing dreams from reality. Although her bubbling imagination provides an abundant source of inspiration for creative or spiritual evolution, it tends to be less helpful and positive in matters that concern her self-assertion as responsible and self-sufficient. In a relationship, she is extremely romantic and does not always see others the way they really are.
Kalani Hilliker does not always readily reveal herself, and she tends to protect her sensitivity. She has a penchant for intense emotions. Sexuality is a prominent element in her life, and her relationships, which are usually passionate, are motivated by her desires. She likes to understand the hidden side of people, their secret or unconfessed motivations. She would thus find a career which placed her in contact with troubled people especially rewarding.
Love and Sensuality:
Kalani Hilliker tries to express her affections in the most graceful and harmonious way possible. Indeed, Kalani has an innate sense of harmony and strives for a love relationship characterized by balance and perfection. Kalani tends to idealize both her partner and the institution of marriage. Any disillusionment Kalani encounters in the pursuit of her ideal may be experienced as a frustration. Kalani does not always ply her powers of seduction skillfully.
Kalani Hilliker’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of their emotional urges and somewhat wary of their feelings, they try to rid themselves of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.
According to the foregoing, it appears that Kalani Hilliker is tormented by contradictory tendencies. Kalani Hilliker is ardent and often excessive with intense feelings that conflict with Kalani Hilliker’s taste for independence. Kalani Hilliker cannot reconcile Kalani Hilliker to submission, but cannot bear to be lonely, either. However, it is crucial for Kalani Hilliker to choose a good partner, because intense splits could feel especially disruptive.
Kalani has high hopes and their capacity for love could be eroded if they connect with someone who is more interested in their own affairs than in ensuring the happiness of their relationship. In this situation, their charm means that they will never be short of a shoulder to cry on. A second marriage may be happier than the first.
Kalani Hilliker is hypersensitive and tends to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of her first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. Kalani is exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. Kalani will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. Kalani is sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. Kalani usually hides her emotional reactions or does not even allow them to reach the level of her consciousness, in an effort to protect her sensitivity, which she sees as her weak point. Kalani is fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, Kalani will disguise her strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside Kalani, and Kalani feels unworthy of the love which is lavished on her. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of Kalani’s desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, Kalani’s fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of Kalani’s romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if Kalani wants to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify herself emotionally, the defense mechanisms Kalani has elaborated to make herself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that Kalani learn how to forget herself occasionally in the other.
Kalani Hilliker has a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. Kalani Hilliker is emotive and hypersensitive, making Kalani Hilliker especially vulnerable emotionally, since Kalani Hilliker is sometimes overwhelmed by Kalani Hilliker’s feelings and affects. Although Kalani Hilliker seeks an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom Kalani Hilliker could maintain blissful, smooth relations, Kalani Hilliker is sometimes met with disillusionment. Because Kalani Hilliker’s rather excessive sensitivity and Kalani Hilliker’s need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge Kalani Hilliker’s judgment and discernment, so Kalani Hilliker sometimes forms extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When Kalani Hilliker meets someone, Kalani Hilliker falls under the enchantment of Kalani Hilliker’s dream of ideal love and cannot keep Kalani Hilliker from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, Kalani Hilliker yields to another of Kalani Hilliker’s characteristic urges and loses Kalani Hilliker in the individual who is so dear to Kalani Hilliker, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find Kalani Hilliker as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, Kalani Hilliker’s psyche is constructed in such a way as to make Kalani Hilliker’s sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before Kalani Hilliker takes on any major commitments, Kalani Hilliker should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates Kalani Hilliker’s intense love, for Kalani Hilliker may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. Kalani Hilliker’s tendency to believe in Kalani Hilliker’s illusions may mark Kalani Hilliker as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for Kalani Hilliker to find a different object for Kalani Hilliker’s affections, or a form of sublimation, because Kalani Hilliker tends to be so disappointed by Kalani Hilliker’s great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of Kalani Hilliker’s imagination procure artistic refinement for Kalani Hilliker, and Kalani Hilliker loves the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because Kalani Hilliker’s sensitivity also makes it easy for Kalani Hilliker to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties Kalani Hilliker’s peers are struggling with, Kalani Hilliker might also find it rewarding to commit Kalani Hilliker to social work.
Mental and Intellect:
Kalani Hilliker’s mental aptitudes make her especially good at comparing, evaluating, and weighing information. This intellectual modus operandi has enabled her to develop an innate sense of values, both artistic and ethical, as well as a remarkable ability to relate to other people. Kalani’s appreciative, conciliatory attitude makes her a skillful diplomat able to untangle conflict situations deftly and with ease. In other situations, Kalani’s artistic spirit is sensitive to a wide variety of harmonies.
Kalani tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. Kalani’s thoughts are usually structured, and Kalani’s reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.