Bill Madlock needs others in order to structure himself. He intuitively senses this need and seeks a balance between his individual ambitions and need to give to others and be loved and recognized in return, although it sometimes eludes him. Marriage and friendship could be realms to which he is especially devoted, but they may also prove to be a source of conflict and disillusion.

Bill Madlock has a paternal complex. This complex results from the fact that he lacked a father figure during his childhood. This was likely due to the fact that his father was absent or did not provide him with the security and examples of behavior which would have helped him to develop a personality. As a result, Bill had to protect himself against negative influences and find his own system in order to grow and feel secure. This system was quite useful to him as a child, but it has now settled in to a degree that it interferes with his evolution. Bill’s psychological defense mechanisms and crutches have become a hindrance to his growth, and as a result he is often awkward or passive in certain situations. Because his authoritarian urges are mainly directed at himself, Bill sometimes feels guilty about his behavior. He judges himself severely and sometimes punishes himself by setting difficult tasks for himself. Gradually, Bill will build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Bill Madlock is very sensitive and receptive and tends to live in osmosis with his surroundings. His individuality almost seems to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over him, and he sometimes finds it difficult to communicate his feelings to other people. This tide of emotion is a source of inspiration and intuition, but his fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for him to grasp the essence of his dreams and share them with other people. He is not at all combative, and this tends to hinder his efforts to fit into society and assert himself productively. He is likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but his refusal to abandon his unattainable dreams is a psychological trap he has fallen into without realizing it. He must understand that by running away from his obligations and commitments, he only increases the feelings of guilt which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once he free himself from this pernicious process, he has a great deal of potential for fulfilling himself in the outer world, either by devoting himself to some sort of social work or by cultivating his considerable artistic talents.

Bill Madlock has an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. He is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as his intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with his “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of himself, he is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of his instincts and feels an imperious need to cope with them. This special consciousness he has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for him at the outset. It is not easy for him to recognize himself in any social or narcissistic models, or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so he sometimes finds himself forced to assert and express his own identity in a way which may strike his contemporaries as strangely intense if not eccentric.

Bill Madlock is hypersensitive to the mood in his surroundings. He is unconsciously able to perceive the parapsychic signals or aura people give off, in addition to their words. As a result, he is extremely compassionate and ready to devote himself to their well-being. His imagination has formulated the dream of an ideal life, and he sometimes feels ill-equipped for the realities of this existence. He tends to dodge difficult situations. With his partner, he seeks fusion.

Bill Madlock’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, he does not always avail himself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although he enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, his thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. He is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste his nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, his feelings sometimes blur his objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause him to make errors in judgment.

Although his demeanor is cool and distant, Bill Madlock is extremely sensitive. In some cases, his rather austere and rigid behavior and his refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. He has spells of melancholy in which he does not feel worthy of being loved and tends to forbid himself any emotional fulfillment whatsoever. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. It is difficult for his inner self to be detached from this past life, and he sometimes has trouble reconciling the image he has of himself as an adult with the one he acquired back then. The idea he has of himself as an individual is related to the image his parents projected onto him as a child. Nevertheless, the past is history, and he is now an adult. Through self-work, he can rid himself of these phantoms. He has the ability to overcome his mistakes, as well as great endurance and will power to achieve his goals. Nevertheless, he must not repress his sensitivity in order to succeed.

Bill Madlock dreamed of a better future, but found himself struggling in the present. He often found refuge in dreams, but this often exposed him to social and private adversity.

Bill Madlock is looking for the ideal love and tends to idealize his friends and lovers. A bizarre character, he may prefer to dream of his soulmate instead of making love to one; he is more in love with the idea of love than anything else. His idealism may hide a fear of truly committing himself to a relationship; he tries to intellectualize everything. In time, two options will seem clear to him: an amorous friendship based on shared ideas and intellectual exchange, or an open relationship, free of all constraints except mutual respect.

Bill Madlock’s birth chart indicates that he has an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of his emotional urges and somewhat wary of his feelings, he tries to rid himself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

Bill Madlock is subject to anxiety and sees himself as a fragile person at the mercy of uncontrollable emotions and feelings strong enough to overwhelm him. He tends to resign himself to circumstances and is liable to confine himself to a state of regretful self-denial, unless he seizes an opportunity to forge his moral strength in a constructive relationship, a religion, or a belief which lends his structure. His choice of a partner is thus crucial. Only a person who is tender yet strong, and reassuring yet flexible will be apt to help him find emotional fulfillment.

Bill Madlock is an idealistic, outgoing, and fantasy-driven being, who is extremely complex when it comes to questions of love. He has an angelic vision of the phenomenon and is seeking magic and enchantment. Although he has a keen understanding of other people, he is tempted to project his aspirations onto a person who does not correspond wholly to his ideal. He is just as likely to find an exceptional or unconventional partner with whom he might share friendship and mutual freedom as to commit himself to a person who turns out to reject all that he stands for. Bill Madlock should thus avoid any temptation to rush into an affair.

You are cautious and reserved, often unwilling to open yourself up to others if you’re not sure they’ll be accepting. You hang back somewhat from your emotional impulses, rationing out your expressions of affection, because you’ve learned – sometimes at your expense – that even the most harmonious relationships require some compromise. For you, “good fences make good neighbors,” and well-marked boundaries can prevent future suffering. Thus, even when you’re in love, you remain fairly circumspect. When you find yourself attracted to a partner, you privately engage in a careful analysis of their personality and life story, endeavoring to know them deeply, to see whether you’re likely to be able to share your life and future with them. As a result of your sensitivity, you have a profound affinity for all of the arts. Music, literature, painting, and graphic arts are likely to enrich your existence and make it pleasant. You could progress in any career in which balance, order, and practicality predominate.

You have an ardent and amorous character, and your relationships are enlivened by intensity and passion. A charmer perpetually engaged in a quest for the ideal love, you are often more in love with the idea of love than with a partner. As a result, your love life may be subject to some instability. You are generally attracted to original people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and expect them to amaze and fascinate you. Your greatest contradictions surface when an intimate relationship is established. Although you merge your ego entirely into the couple, you are likely to demand a total autonomy and liberty which are inimical to intimacy. If your partner charms and captivates you long enough, there is some possibility that they will form a more solid bond with you; otherwise, you are likely to yield to your need for novelty and fall under the spell of an entirely different person who exerts a new kind of charm for you. Midlife may be a turning point for you from this point of view. Your contradictory attitude may in some ways hide a compulsion to reject and deny the bonds of dependency inherent to a love relationship. Your behavior enables you to remain aloof, to commit yourself only halfway without consciously admitting it to yourself, and to avoid feeling guilty if and when you lose interest. An insatiable appetite for novelty and exaltation sometimes keeps you from forming stable relationships. Indeed, you are tormented by the struggle between your undeniable need for affection and an equally imperious desire for personal progress and emancipation. As a result of this inner turmoil, your romantic aspirations are usually sabotaged sooner or later by your conviction that your partner has become an obstacle to your individual progress. Because you think of love as a restraint, you may even eventually consciously refuse any emotional approach to love interests. As an ascetic, you will try to deflect the love function from its natural target and use the energy and bliss it generates for other purposes, the process psychologists call sublimation. However, you are also likely to meet “the one” who inspires you to initiate a change in your behavior.

Bill Madlock considered the input from his subjectivity and emotions as static which he tried to tune out to go straight to the essence of knowledge. As a result, regardless of his field of study, he tried to obtain perspective. He would elaborate a thought on the basis of fairly cold, abstract logic, supported by sober, concise, and immaculate reasoning. His choice areas of study could be mathematics, philosophy, legislation, or political science. Ideologies, theories, and any other system of reasoning could serve as “food for thought” for him.

Bill Madlock expresses his thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. He is fairly extroverted and eager to discover and understand the outer world. An idealist, he looks forward to a bright future but is sometimes subjective and reckless.

Bill Madlock has a difficult time integrating new ideas and concepts and has a distaste for study. He also has feelings of insecurity that undermine his will and give him difficulty competing. However, if he overcame these emotions, he would be able to see that he has marketable skills and that many satisfactory solutions to his feelings of ineptitude are within his reach. He may display some hostility or vindictiveness toward people who represent law enforcement agencies or power as an adult.