Amy Heidemann is searching for stability. She wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for her life. But her efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, she is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time she reaches what she believes to be a good balance, she realizes she wants something entirely different. She should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

Amy Heidemann has a paternal complex, which makes it difficult for her to find her identity. She might have lacked a father figure during her childhood, which deprived her of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because she lacked security, as well as examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, she was forced to protect herself against negative influences and find her own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to her as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with her evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber her mind or inhibit her developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for her to assert herself, and she tends to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because her authoritarian urges are mainly directed at herself rather than others, she sometimes feels guilty about her behavior. She judges herself severely, and sometimes punishes herself by setting difficult tasks for herself. Gradually, she should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Amy Heidemann was born under a positive sign, with the sun and moon aligned in perfect symmetry. This indicates balance and harmony between the masculine and feminine archetypes, and provides an understanding and complementary relationship between conscious and unconscious thoughts, feelings, and behaviors. Amy’s parents likely showed her how to be comfortable in her own skin, and as a result she has few personal conflicts with others. Her relationships are strong and mutually beneficial, with little projection of negative energy onto her partners.

Amy Heidemann has great strength of character. Her courage and endurance enable her to accomplish even extremely arduous tasks. Although she sometimes behaves impulsively, she generally knows how to plan out an effective strategy, and, as a result, she reaches her goals without meeting any major obstacles. Her forcefulness gives her certain leadership skills, which she may implement to creative and constructive ends.

Amy Heidemann was born into a family of professionals. She was raised with high expectations and was taught to be self-sufficient. She developed a strong spirit of self-reliance, but can be timid and hesitant. She often feels guilty for not living up to her ideal and is reluctant to take on prominent career positions. She is aware that early success is often short-lived and fragile and that time rewards those who know how to be patient and persistent, like her.

Amy Heidemann has a profound and fertile inner life and a prolific imagination, but her energy resources are not always sufficient to follow through on and accomplish her multitude of dreams. She tends to live in osmosis with her environment, and effort and action take a heavy toll on her. Usually, she understands phenomena and events intuitively, without really making any effort; so she is not in the habit of disciplining or shaping her thought processes. Like her thoughts, her personality is rather amorphous and disorganized. As a result of this lack of structure, she may have some trouble asserting her individuality and making some personal contribution to society through her career. Her tendency to shut out reality and dream impossible dreams, like her refusal of responsibility and duty, may be a source of some difficulty for her.

Amy Heidemann has an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. She is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as her intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with her “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of herself, she is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of her instincts and feels an imperious need to cope with them. This special consciousness she has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for her at the outset. It is not easy for her to recognize herself in any social or narcissistic models, or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so she sometimes finds herself forced to assert and express her own identity in a way which may strike her contemporaries as strangely intense if not eccentric.

Amy Heidemann usually keeps her emotions in check and avoids situations where she might have to express them. This is because she doesn’t feel loved enough and this often leads to problems in her love life. She puts all her energy into her career, seeking social recognition.

Amy Heidemann’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.

Amy Heidemann has a sensitive personality. She may jump to conclusions, which could disrupt relationships, as well as career plans. She is subject to cyclical energy flows and goes from periods of feverish activity to periods of withdrawal and introspection. The aggressive element in her behavior may be explained by emotional problems she may have experienced in infancy: her mother, or a mother figure, may have had an energetic and volatile personality.

Amy Heidemann enjoys captivating people with the elegance and ease of her expression. She is a witty and engaging flirt, an avid player of the game of love. As a result, the history of her affections is liable to be episodic, a long series of chapters about conquests or fleeting love affairs. She may carry on some love relationships by writing letters.

Amy Heidemann’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of her emotional urges and somewhat wary of her feelings, she tries to rid herself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

Amy Heidemann’s cool head gives her an energetic and calculating spirit. She is so firmly anchored in the tangible world and the daily routine, she may be a bit vague about anything outside her usual orbit. An efficient organizer, she is aware of her merits. Her private life is characterized by a muffled frustration despite the fortunate coincidences which help her fulfill her desires.

Amy Heidemann withdraws or flees when faced with an opportunity for commitment. A person younger than herself, and perhaps more carefree and whimsical, might be able to draw her out of her shell. But they should not expect her to offer what she cannot give.

Amy Heidemann is hypersensitive and tends to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of her first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. She is exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. She will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. She is sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. She usually hides her emotional reactions or does not even allow them to reach the level of her consciousness, in order to protect her sensitivity, which she sees as her weak point. She is fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, she will disguise her strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside her, and she feels unworthy of the love which is lavished on her. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of her desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, her fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of her romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if you want to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify yourself emotionally, the defense mechanisms you have elaborated to make yourself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled.

Amy Heidemann is an intuitive thinker. She does not reason things out through a long, articulate, logical discourse; instead, she seize the visions or insights that spontaneously flash into her consciousness. She thus has a form of immediate knowledge of various phenomena which is based neither on reasoning nor on any elaborate thought process or method. As a result, if she is an extrovert, she will possess an inventive, innovative spirit gifted for improvisation. If she is an introvert, her mind will be an abundant source of personal inner truths.

Amy Heidemann expresses her thoughts and ideas in direct, spontaneous outbursts. She is fairly extroverted and eager to discover and understand the outer world. An idealist, she looks forward to a bright future but is sometimes subjective and reckless.

You have a lively and agile spirit, but you tend to apply your mental abilities in a somewhat haphazard and disorderly way. You are curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences with an attitude free of either dogmatism or prejudice. Your extremely lively mind leads you to have an opinion on every subject. Although you enjoy manipulating expressions and concepts and amuses others and yourself with witty remarks, your conversations could collapse into argument and conflict. Because you are often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform your ideas, you are sometimes misunderstood. You are often blind to the rashness of your judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around you. Actually, your overriding need to assert yourself as an individual sometimes defeats discussion and prevents you from listening to the other person fairly. But if you were to succeed in disciplining your mind somewhat, you would have innumerable opportunities to apply your communications skills to a great career. Additionally, you should be careful of your nerves, which are fairly high-strung. Any physical fitness activity would be beneficial; an Eastern discipline such as yoga or Tai-chi-chuan could teach you how to relax and improve control of your nervous and mental energies.