If you really want to improve and transform yourself, the first step is to become aware of the weaknesses which may be holding you back and preventing your evolution:
Your perfectionism, your tendency to hyperfocus on minutiae, your over intellectualization, and your comfort with a constant state of worry.

For Alpha, healthy emotional development will require a conscious adaptation, because she is still the captive of sensations which have never been clarified, and, as a result, her sensitivity cannot really blossom fully. Although she seeks close relationships and intimacy with people she trusts to give her love and support, she sometimes feels alienated from other people and may withdraw into a remote bubble. Were she to open herself fully to the world of relations with others, by the means of continual, subtle changes, she could prepare herself for a total metamorphosis of her destiny. Both her sensitivity and her relationships would have access to a new path, more altruistic, open, and dedicated to others.