Abdul Hamid searches for stability; he wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for his life. But his efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, he is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time he reaches what he believes to be a good balance, he realizes he wants something entirely different. He would do well to become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

You have a strong paternal complex and find it difficult to find your identity. Perhaps your father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during your childhood, which deprived you of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because you might have lacked a certain sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, you were forced to protect yourself against negative influences and find your own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to you as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with your evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber your mind or inhibit your developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for you to assert yourself, and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed at yourself rather than others, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself severely, and sometimes punishes yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Abdul Hamid is sensitive and receptive and lives in osmosis with his surroundings. His individuality almost seems to be diluted in a flood of sensations and impressions which are continually washing over him, and he sometimes finds it difficult to communicate his feelings to other people. This tide of emotion is a source of inspiration and intuition, but his fluid inner structure and organization sometimes make it difficult for him to grasp the essence of his dreams and share them with other people. Abdul Hamid is not at all combative, and this tends to hinder his efforts to fit into society and assert himself productively. He is likely to prefer fantasy to reality, but his refusal to abandon his unattainable dreams is a psychological trap he has fallen into without realizing it. Abdul Hamid must understand that by running away from his obligations and commitments, he only increases the feelings of guilt which made reality so distasteful in the first place. Once he free himself from this pernicious process, he has a great deal of potential for fulfilling himself in the outer world, either by devoting himself to some sort of social work or by cultivating his considerable artistic talents.

You are aware of the void, the vanity of existence, and the unknowable, unconscious force that disturbs you. You often find yourself disoriented and deconstructed, and prefer to focus on the deeper experiences of life. You grapple with your “fundamental nature,” and it is sometimes aghast at the power of your instincts. This special consciousness you have is different from conventional schools of thought and can be a source of identity problems for you at first. It is not easy for you to identify with any social or narcissistic models, or any existing roles or attitudes. You have to assert and express your own identity in a way that can be strange to your contemporaries.

Abdul Hamid is hypersensitive, receptive to the mood in his surroundings, and unconsciously able to perceive the parapsychic signals or aura people give off. As a result, he is extremely compassionate and ready to devote himself to their well-being. His imagination has formulated the dream of an ideal life, and he sometimes feels ill-equipped for the realities of this existence. He tends to dodge difficult situations. With his partner, he seeks fusion.

Although you appear to be composed and in control on the surface, you are actually very emotional. In some cases, your rather austere and rigid behavior and refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. You have spells of melancholy in which you do not feel worthy of being loved and tend to forbid yourself emotional fulfillment. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. It is difficult for your inner self to be detached from this past life, and you sometimes have trouble reconciling the image you have of yourself as an adult with the one you acquired back then. The idea you have of yourself as an individual is related to the image your parents projected onto you as a child. Nevertheless, the past is history, and you are now an adult. It should be easy for you to rid yourself of these phantoms through self-work. You have the ability to overcome your mistakes and great endurance and will power to achieve your goals. However, you must not repress your sensitivity in order to succeed.

Abdul Hamid sometimes feels sensitive and emotive, cringing from life and passively hoping for a better future, a utopian society, or a transcendent state of consciousness. However, by taking refuge in dreams, he may expose himself to adversity, both socially and in his private life.

Abdul Hamid’s attractions are usually immediate and intense. They rise quickly to fever pitch. The story of these passions is often dramatic to excess, combining all the plot elements of a classic love tragedy: jealousy, possessiveness, agony as an erotic stimulant, etc.

Abdul Hamid’s birth chart indicates that he has an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. He enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with his gaze riveted on the future, Abdul Hamid is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Abdul Hamid is subject to anxiety and sees himself as a fragile person at the mercy of uncontrollable emotions and feelings strong enough to overwhelm him. He tends to resign himself to circumstances and is liable to confine himself to a state of regretful self-denial, unless he seizes an opportunity to forge his moral strength in a constructive relationship, a religion, or a belief which lends his structure. His choice of a partner is thus crucial. Only a person who is tender yet strong, and reassuring yet flexible will be apt to help him find emotional fulfillment.

Abdul Hamid falls head-over-heels quite easily, although when he comes to his senses, he has very few illusions. As a result, conspiratorial plotting may be a feature of his love life. He usually attracts passionate, sensual people. Moreover, there is some chance his conquests will turn out to be demanding or possessive.

You may be characterized by strong sensual and affectionate urges which drive you to seek pleasure. Your need for romantic fulfillment may compel you to marry, because you also seek the legal and social legitimacy the institution of marriage confers on an emotional bond. Indeed, the household is liable to be prosperous and even opulent, as if this offered further evidence that you had indeed achieved success. However, privately, you might be less committed to certain obligations and duties. At worst, you might deny the commitments that your optimism and expansiveness made you rush into too soon. If this were to be the case, the outward image of the couple’s success (wealth and comfort, etc.) would only be a façade which compensated for its emotional impoverishment and failure. Sooner or later, this hypocrisy might provoke a full-blown conflict. A second possibility is that a psychic incompatibility may gradually take root, pitting your romantic nature against the prerogatives of your career.

Abdul Hamid considers the input from his subjectivity and emotions as dynamic which he tries to tune out to go straight to the essence of knowledge. As a result, regardless of his field of study, he tries to obtain perspective. He will elaborate a thought on the basis of fairly warm, abstract logic, supported by passionate, concise, and immaculate reasoning. His choice areas of study could be mathematics, philosophy, legislation, or political science. Ideologies, theories, and any other system of reasoning could serve as “food for thought” for him.

Abdul Hamid tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. His thoughts are usually structured, and his reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.