There is a fundamental contradiction or opposition at the core of my personality, but it does not shatter my integrity. However, it causes my inner world to be complex, divided, or even torn, without ever being totally dissociated, because every thought and action is a source of unification. As a result, intellectually I am a talented syncretist. I am able to see the link between heterogeneous and diverse elements which do not appear to be related in the least. I can bring about surprising reconciliation, create unexpected bonds, combine beliefs which seem mutually incompatible.
My imaginative powers also flow from the division in my psyche and are evidenced by inspirations, visions, and abilities which exceed the context of logic and reasoning. I allow myself to be guided by irrational phenomena like foreshadowing or premonitions, which well up from the depths of my being. I am more of a medium than an intuitive, because intuition requires a clear consciousness of reality. I am borne along by currents and tides of knowledge and live in symbiosis with forces which overwhelm me. In fact, it is because of this relative passivity that I am more or less a medium, because I wish merely to perceive what surrounds me; I have no wish to impose my will. Although this attitude endows me with great potential for productivity, it may also become dangerous, if I find myself overpowered by forces I can never totally control. I tend to perceive things as undifferentiated; I do not always see the world as an organized, structured, hierarchical entity. Instead, I am sensitive to energy flows, to invisible forces which I perceive and try to interpret. My consciousness knows no bounds, and I do not feel confined by either space or time. But the image of the infinite imprinted on my imagination has a tendency to manifest itself with a lack of definition, in most of my thoughts and acts.
In relation to other people, I usually demonstrate warmth and humanism. I am a fairly pleasant companion, although my sensitivity can be annoying at times. I tend to identify with my friends to a great degree, instead of remaining apart and empathetic. In fact, I am capable of losing myself in another person at times. I should take time to reflect upon the quality of what I bestow on others and on whom I bestow it. I would doubtless come to the conclusion that my devotion is motivated by guilt feelings; my giving is a way of escaping from myself, and my broad tolerance sometimes merely hides a weak character. My basic aptitude for compassion could inspire me to relieve human misery, either privately or professionally. Hospital or prison work would not frighten me, because I understand them as closed environments which are open in terms of the inner adventures and journeys they house. Inner adventures are one thing I understand.
In my ideal, I feel capable of easing the worst suffering, but sometimes as I help others overcome their problems, I am also trying to face up to my collective unconscious – that is, the final product of all my failures to assert myself, from childhood right up to adulthood. Because of my hypersensitivity, I am a fairly delicate person. I tend to go through sorrowful or depressive phases, long psychic tunnels where my anguishes lurk. I would be wise to withstand them instead of trying to escape. If I could detect what triggered my lack of confidence in my unconscious, I might be healed.
Rachel Levin has high social aspirations. She believes that by gaining total control of her intellect, feelings, and instincts, she can achieve them.
Rachel Levin’s personality develops mainly in the shelter of the home. She is attached to her family, her heritage, and her past.
At the time of Rachel Levin’s birth, her rising sign was located in Libra (the Scales), while the sun was passing through the sign of Pisces (the Fish). A summary of the various clues mentioned above provide her personality profile. The following key words capture the essence of her character and indicate certain contradictions which may be sources of tension:
Sociability – Emotionalism – Adaptability – Pliancy – Emotion – Humility and reserve – Tolerance – Idealism – Peaceful disposition – Sense of harmony – Intuition – Worldliness – Premonition.
Rachel Levin is torn by a deep inner conflict between her intellectual, rational, methodical side and a more romantic, emotional, sensitive tendency. Her spontaneous urges and feelings are often restrained by her fussy, perfectionist reasoning; her idealistic ambitions and fantasies are stopped short by the moral and social considerations imposed by her intellect.
Conversely, her analytical skills and critical judgments might be at odds with her emotionalism and impressionability. She must work to make these two influences mutually comprehensible, to achieve, upon maturity, a well-balanced personality enriched by opposing elements. The most promising way to resolve the conflict is by moderating her sensitivity, developing her decision-making capacities, and channeling her energy. Without stifling her intuition and imagination, she must be wary of her tendency to escape into a dream world.
Born in the seven to ten days after the full moon rose, Rachel Levin is of the “last quarter” lunar type. As a result, her personality is fairly independent and self-sufficient. Her ideas are original and often bold, but, to her dismay, do not often garner a majority of followers.
Her sense of humor is her best communications tool, but she often switches to a more severe tone which breaks her charm over her audience, and her methods do not always please the masses.
Her lack of flexibility hinders her strategies and projects, and she would gain by developing her sense of diplomacy and tact. Although she is not unduly attached to success, because she is so used to being ahead of her time, her failures take a psychological toll on her. Because each setback wears her down a little more, she should try to avoid further disappointments by conforming to contemporary reality a little more closely.
