Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

Sophia Grace Brownlee is searching for stability, wanting to find a firm, unchanging structure for her life. But her efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, she is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time she reaches what she believe to be a good balance, she realizes she wants something entirely different. She would do well to become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

Sophia Grace Brownlee’s personality and behavior are liable to be disrupted by a contradiction between the masculine and feminine archetypes ruling her psyche. Because her sensitivity is in conflict with her determination, her attitude and performance may sometimes be moody, fluctuating, and uncertain. Usually, she has the feeling she has to make superhuman efforts to succeed in assuaging her yearnings and fulfilling her ambitions. Her unconscious, sensitive side often disapproves of her conscious endeavors and stealthily works to defeat them, causing crucial omissions, mistakes, and gaps which effectively sabotage her plans. In her relationships, the images she builds up and projects on the other are contradictory. As a result, any bond, even if it is pleasant and positive, might also annoy her. She could find it dissatisfying and irritating at the same time.

Sophia Grace Brownlee is extremely vigorous and energetic and has an immense need to assert her individuality. Her attitudes and actions are actually motivated by an unconscious desire for power. They puzzle the people close to her, who cannot understand whether her behavior is the result of pure selfishness or merely of an excess of energy. She is lively, alert, and determined, but she is too easily distracted from goals by futile competition or opportunities to exhibit her power. She has a short temper and must learn to control her impulsiveness, which might expose her to a great deal of unnecessary conflict.

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Sophia Grace Brownlee is winning and attractive. She has an appetite for intense emotional experiences, especially in terms of her relationships. Enjoying the power of her personal appeal, she easily controls her emotions and only rarely reveals the true depth of her feelings.

Because her instincts take precedence over her sensitivity, she is capable of becoming jealous, possessive, and even rather harsh, without meaning to. More of a flirt than a voluptuary, she is attentive to desire. As a result, her love life will sometimes be casual and complicated.

Sophia Grace Brownlee has a sensitive and affectionate nature. She seeks tenderness and gentleness more than passion. Her relationships with others are smooth and pleasant, and she has a natural sense of tact and social grace.

Sophia Grace Brownlee has a sensitive nature. Although she may sometimes have trouble controlling her emotional reactions, they are nevertheless a source of vital energy for a constructive passion and may make an extremely positive contribution to her career. In relations with other people, she is quite friendly; she willingly reaches out to people and knows how to listen to their desires and their problems.

Although my demeanor is cool and distant, I am extremely sensitive. In some cases, my rather austere and rigid behavior and my refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. I have spells of melancholy in which I do not feel worthy of being loved and tend to forbid myself any emotional fulfillment whatsoever. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. It is difficult for my inner self to be detached from this past life, and I sometimes have trouble reconciling the image I have of myself as an adult with the one I acquired back then. The idea I have of myself as an individual is related to the image my parents projected onto me as a child. Nevertheless, the past is history, and I am now an adult. Through self-work, I can rid myself of these phantoms. I have the ability to overcome my mistakes, as well as great endurance and will power to achieve my goals. Nevertheless, I must not repress my sensitivity in order to succeed.

Although Sophia Grace Brownlee keeps a tight grip on her emotions, she has an appetite for intense emotional thrills, especially in her relationships, and is sometimes upset by them. Feelings of insecurity may keep her from expressing her emotions, and she tends at times to become jealous or possessive of the person she loves. The force of her emotional drives is intense and especially evident when she has been wounded in some way in the course of a love affair, or if she feels as though someone, a friend or lover, has betrayed her. She has a tendency to be masochistic and thrive on suffering. She may abandon herself to her emotional fears and trifle with her inner vulnerability.

Sophia Grace Brownlee is emotional and tends to react suddenly and excessively as soon as her sensitivity is touched. Although she feels that her independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental values, she is sometimes frustrated by her need to rely on her family or friends. Moreover, she does not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as her own. Likewise, she is sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if she feared that it would doom her to eternal dependency. Her ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship she had with her mother or a mother figure. Although she was dependent on them, they may have rejected her. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which her sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are liable to form. To ward off her feelings of dependency, she sometimes tends to become destructive. Based on denial, her reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.

Love and Sensuality:

Sophia Grace Brownlee’s sensitivity may sometimes overwhelm her partners, and her compassion for the other is profound. She readily sacrifices her own interest to others, to provide help and assistance. A romantic as well as an idealist, she sometimes lack discernment in the choice of her partners. She is fairly confused and evasive and has trouble expressing her feelings clearly. Nevertheless, she is capable of devoting herself entirely to the person she loves. She has a tendency to daydream and become lost in herself.

Sophia Grace Brownlee’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is expressed in a direct and fairly impulsive way. She enjoys reaching out to other people and making discoveries. An eternal teenager with her gaze riveted on the future, she is imbued with an eminently subjective and personal idealism.

Sophia Grace Brownlee may struggle to be comfortable with herself. Her aggressiveness is an obstacle to her relationships, especially with romantic interests, causing clashes and conflicts almost against her will. Her instincts predominate over her mind and her senses supersede or distort her feelings, so her relationships are usually abrupt. She really needs to find an activity which could channel her enormous potential.

Disillusioned by love, Sophia Grace Brownlee takes pleasure in a kind of self-denial or self-sacrifice that occasionally borders on masochism. But Sophia Grace Brownlee knows that before Sophia Grace Brownlee can be loved by someone else, Sophia Grace Brownlee has got to learn to love Sophia Grace Brownlee. Only a relationship based on mutual respect and esteem can bring Sophia Grace Brownlee the emotional fulfillment Sophia Grace Brownlee seeks. A second marriage or relationship with an older partner should help Sophia Grace Brownlee to restore the balance that was largely lost in Sophia Grace Brownlee’s early relationships.

Sophia Grace Brownlee has the fiery, importunate nature of a fervent lover. Indeed, affairs of the heart are one of her main purposes in life. Her personal charm and magnetism give her nearly irresistible powers of seduction, and nearly every one of her well-aimed attempts at conquest leads to the fulfillment and satisfaction of her desires. Due to her impulsiveness and impatience to initiate new encounters, her approach to potential partners may sometimes lack delicacy.

Sophia Grace Brownlee is hypersensitive and tends to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of her first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. She is exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. She will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. She is sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. She usually hides her emotional reactions or does not even allow them to reach the level of her consciousness, in an effort to protect her sensitivity, which she sees as her weak point. She is fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, she will disguise her strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside her, and she feels unworthy of the love which is lavished on her. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of her desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, her fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of her romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if she wants to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify herself emotionally, the defense mechanisms she has elaborated to make herself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that she learn how to forget herself occasionally in the other.

From the outside, Sophia Grace Brownlee seems to be detached and aloof, but on the inside she is an extremely complex individual, full of contradictions. Because she sometimes feels vulnerable emotionally, she tries to control not only her own feelings and urges, but may also strive to manipulate those of her partners. She aspires to a profound and enduring spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning herself and yielding to the other terrifies her. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because she is guarded and somewhat secretive, she tends to be suspicious and is especially uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although she is fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, she will not express her feelings unless she is subject to some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of her emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, she is likely to be attracted by stormy and complicated relationships.

Mental and Intellect:

Sophia Grace Brownlee is somewhat plodding but realistic and pragmatic. Because she is chiefly preoccupied with the practical aspects of things, she is especially apt to develop more efficient production concepts. Although her good judgment and common sense provide her with an excellent ability to handle the tangible world (she is certainly clever, and can quickly assess the tangible value of things), her thought processes might be relatively impervious to abstract concepts and spiritual awakenings.

Sophia Grace Brownlee tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. Her thoughts are usually structured, and her reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.