Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:
Elliana Walmsley’s confidence in herself sometimes falters, and she might try to compensate for this weakness by insisting on her authority over others. With the people she is emotionally committed to, the same nagging feelings of insecurity prevent her from expressing her generosity and love fully; her extreme independence sometimes hides an inability to abandon herself and a lack of assurance.
At the moment of Elliana Walmsley’s birth, the two celestial “lights” (the sun and the moon) were symmetrically aligned. This is a portent of harmony between the masculine and feminine archetypes which is extremely beneficial. It is the source of balance and understanding between the two main psychological realms which may be said to compose the personality. Elliana Walmsley thus enjoys a positive complementarity and understanding between the conscious and unconscious aspects of her psyche, between her determination and her routines, between her drive for self-assertion and her receptivity, her ideal and her sensitivity.
Elliana Walmsley’s parents almost certainly reflected a positive image of the marriage relationship to her, and it is likely that they encouraged her to develop her own individuality. As a result, she was and is able to be comfortable with herself as she is instead of striving to attain her parents’ ideal. This has definitely contributed to the maintenance of a good relationship with them and the rest of the family.
In Elliana Walmsley’s emotional relationships with her peers, one of the effects of the masculine/feminine harmony is that the images her ego projects on the other are especially constructive. The bonds of the relationship are not felt to be constraints, the energy which flows between the two people is a source of mutual happiness, not regret. No major personal conflicts are projected onto the “other” – that is, the significant other.
Elliana Walmsley has great strength of character. Her courage and endurance enable her to accomplish even extremely arduous tasks. Although she sometimes behaves impulsively, she generally knows how to plan out an effective strategy, and, as a result, she reaches her goals without meeting any major obstacles. Her forcefulness gives her certain leadership skills, which she may implement to creative and constructive ends.
Elliana Walmsley has an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. She is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tends to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as her intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with her “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of herself, she is sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of her instincts and feels an imperious need to cope with them. This special consciousness she has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for her at the outset. It is not easy for her to recognize herself in any social or narcissistic models, or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so she sometimes finds herself forced to assert and express her own identity in a way which may strike her contemporaries as strangely intense if not eccentric.
Adaptation and Sensitivity:
Extremely sociable, Elliana Walmsley is instinctively in tune with others. A need to be accepted and respected makes her tactful and diplomatic; in fact, she will sometimes swallow her personal pride in the interests of the smooth running of the group. She is also fond of harmony and order in artistic terms; she is sensitive and discerning, and will avoid anything crude and vulgar. As a result, she is sometimes offended by the harsh demands of existence. Relationships (the couple, or a partnership) take a central role in her life.
Elliana Walmsley has a sensitive and affectionate nature. Elliana Walmsley seeks tenderness and gentleness more than passion. Elliana Walmsley’s relationships with others are smooth and pleasant, and Elliana Walmsley has a natural sense of tact and social grace.
Elliana Walmsley is emotional and tends to react suddenly and excessively as soon as her sensitivity is touched. Although she feels that her independence, freedom, and self-sufficiency are fundamental values, she is sometimes frustrated by her need to rely on her family or friends. Moreover, she does not always grant the freedom of other people the same respect as her own. Likewise, she is sometimes angered by expressions of maternal tenderness, as if she feared that it would doom her to eternal dependency. Her ambivalent behavior, full of jagged edges, may be traced back to the relationship she had with her mother or a mother figure. Although she was dependent on them, they may have rejected her. Now this attitude is extended to any situation in which her sensitivity comes into play and emotional bonds are liable to form. To ward off her feelings of dependency, she sometimes tends to become destructive. Based on denial, her reactions might be fierce, impulsive, excessive, erratic, or contradictory.
Because Elliana Walmsley is extremely sensitive and has an irrepressible imagination, she sometimes has trouble distinguishing dreams from reality. Although her imagination can be an abundant source of inspiration for creative or spiritual evolution, it tends to be less helpful and positive in matters that concern earning a decent living out in the real world. In a relationship, Elliana is extremely romantic and does not always see others the way they really are. She has elegant tastes and art and beauty are one of her chief pleasures in life.
Love and Sensuality:
Elliana Walmsley has fairly lofty amorous aspirations. The soulmate she imagines for herself is brilliant and dazzling with an array of talents and beauty. However, the gap between her splendid ideal and reality is sometimes wide. She should be careful not to confuse her romantic ideal with reality and become aware that her tendency to project may be a way of fleeing from herself.
Elliana Walmsley’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of her emotional urges and somewhat wary of her feelings, she tries to rid herself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.
As a result of this conflict between the conscious, active, masculine principle of Elliana Walmsley’s psyche and the unconscious, passive, feminine principle, Elliana Walmsley is continually subject to nervous tension, which wears her out and exhausts her. Her mind and body are always feverishly active. She always tends to do too much, to become obsessed with insignificant details, or to panic when faced with the unexpected. She is likely to marry a partner younger than she is, either chronologically or in terms of their sense of duty. But perhaps her second marriage will be more reasonable and satisfying.
Elliana Walmsley’s energy and dynamism are the secret of their power of attraction and amorous conquests. They are hungry for admiration and want the person they love to worship them. Noble, generous, and loyal as a lover, they may nevertheless go about it their own way. They are especially mindful of their prestige and will seek out a partner worthy of their greatness. Their pride may sometimes trip them up in this respect. However, once they have made up their mind, they will be the best of spouses and, if they choose to have children, the most devoted of parents.
Elliana Walmsley may be characterized by strong sensual and affectionate urges which drive her to seek pleasure. Her need for romantic fulfillment may compel her to marry, because she also seeks the legal and social legitimacy the institution of marriage confers on an emotional bond. Indeed, the household is liable to be prosperous and even opulent, as if this offered further evidence that she had indeed achieved success. However, privately, she might be less committed to certain obligations and duties.
Elliana Walmsley is hypersensitive and tends to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of her first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. She is exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. She will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. She is sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. She usually hides her emotional reactions or does not even allow them to reach the level of her consciousness, in an effort to protect her sensitivity, which she sees as her weak point. She is fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, she will disguise her strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside her, and she feels unworthy of the love which is lavished on her. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of her desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, her fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of her romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if she wants to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify herself emotionally, the defense mechanisms she has elaborated to make herself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that she learn how to forget herself occasionally in the other.
Elliana Walmsley has a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. She is emotive and hypersensitive, making her especially vulnerable emotionally, since she is sometimes overwhelmed by her feelings and affects. Although she seeks an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom she could maintain blissful, smooth relations, she is sometimes met with disillusionment. Because her rather excessive sensitivity and her need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge her judgment and discernment, so she sometimes forms extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When she meets someone, she falls under the enchantment of her dream of ideal love and cannot keep herself from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, she yields to another of her characteristic urges and loses herself in the individual who is so dear to her, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find herself as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, her psyche is constructed in such a way as to make her sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before she takes on any major commitments, she should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates her intense love, for she may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. Her tendency to believe in her illusions may mark her as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for her to find a different object for her affections, or a form of sublimation, because she tends to be so disappointed by her great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of her imagination procure artistic refinement for her, and she loves the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because her sensitivity also makes it easy for her to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties her peers are struggling with, she might also find it rewarding to commit herself to social work.
Mental and Intellect:
Elliana Walmsley’s intellect, which is simultaneously subjective and sensitive, acute and intuitive, always practical and deeply rooted in human experience, predisposes her to a people-oriented activity. With her memory and imagination combined with her shrewdness, she would be a gifted project manager, businesswoman, or scholar of history or literature.
Elliana Walmsley does not express her thoughts and ideas smoothly or easily. She tends to be subjective, seeking to know herself better through a process of introversion.