cjay011 believes that consciousness is an essential part of the human experience and that the ideal of self is an important part of the human quest for meaning.

cjay011 searches for stability. He wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for his life. But his efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, he is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time he reaches what he believes to be a good balance, he realizes he wants something entirely different. He should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

cjay011 is extremely vigorous and energetic and has an immense need to assert his individuality. His attitudes and actions are actually motivated by an unconscious desire for power. He puzzles the people close to him, who cannot understand whether his behavior is the result of pure selfishness or merely of an excess of energy. He is lively, alert, and determined, but he is too easily distracted from goals by futile competition or opportunities to exhibit his power. He has a short temper and must learn to control his impulsiveness, which might expose him to a great deal of unnecessary conflict.

cjay011 has adapted and is sensitive to various situations.

cjay011 is pragmatic and realistic. He evaluates people and things according to practical, common-sense criteria instead of abstract concepts. A sensualist and lover of luxury, he has a penchant for material comfort and takes great joy in physical pleasures. In relation to others, socially and privately, he likes to build stable relationships and is not especially fond of change. His warmth gives him a great deal of ease when meeting people, as clients (for business purposes), but his close relations also benefit from this affection and his ability to express his feelings naturally and openly.

cjay011 maintains strong ties with her past, and it often seems difficult for her to open her heart to new people. Her love affairs might exist on the surface level, because her lust and sensual desire rarely turn into a need to understand, protect, and care for the other. Moreover, it is difficult for her to meet partners who combine the ideals of the tender parent and the great lover.

cjay011 has a sensitivity and irrepressible imagination which sometimes leads to difficulty distinguishing dreams from reality. Although his imagination can be an abundant source of inspiration for creative or spiritual evolution, it tends to be less helpful and positive in matters that concern earning a decent living out in the real world. In a relationship, cjay011 is extremely romantic and does not always see others the way they really are. He has elegant tastes and art and beauty are one of his chief pleasures in life.

cjay011 has a sensitivity and emotions that are sometimes in conflict with their instincts. This inner discord makes her a fairly complicated relationship partner, and her behavior sometimes strikes others as mysterious or baffling. She is liable to switch from one attitude to the opposite. Sexuality is an important part of her life, and her relationships are most often motivated by her desires. Nevertheless, due to her unconscious inner battle, she does not often succeed in reconciling and fulfilling her emotional and sexual needs. Due to the strength of her instincts, passion may overwhelm her and drag her into situations she cannot always control, which intermingle erotic ecstasy and anguish, guilt, and aggressiveness.

cjay011 feels love and sensuality.

cjay011’s attractions are usually immediate and intense. They rise quickly to fever pitch. The story of these passions is often dramatic to excess, combining all the plot elements of a classic love tragedy: jealousy, possessiveness, agony as an erotic stimulant, etc.

cjay011’s birth chart indicates a somewhat introverted emotional function which is influenced by the cultural values traditional to cjay011’s family and social class. Because cjay011 does not always trust his emotional urges and reactions, he generally prefers to hang back and acquire some perspective before committing himself emotionally.

cjay011 has a difficult time involving herself emotionally. The usual romantic behavior and the lifestyle values prevalent in this area are not really appropriate for her. As a result, she seeks few intimate emotional relationships or contacts. She tends to stay in the background and fulfill her emotional needs by sublimating. She might not attain full romantic satisfaction until she reaches middle age.

The fairly equivocal mixture of charm and passion, strength and frailty, that you wield with the purpose of controlling the other in addition to being loved is subject to intense and sometimes tragic passions, in which ecstasy and pain, jealousy and tenderness mingle inextricably. However, it is possible that, over time, you may succeed in overcoming your instincts, and be able to devote yourself to the mate you have chosen in a positive and creative way.

cjay011 exerts an odd and somewhat mysterious power of attraction. But he is irresistibly lured to partners who break his heart, and he seems almost to have an affinity for tormented but intense relationships. In a rage of disappointment, he is likely to go from total love to total indifference. He is especially attracted to possessive and complex people.

cjay011 may be characterized by strong sensual and affectionate urges which drive her to seek pleasure. Her need for romantic fulfillment may compel her to marry, because she also seeks the legal and social legitimacy the institution of marriage confers on an emotional bond. Indeed, the household is liable to be prosperous and even opulent, as if this offered further evidence that she had indeed achieved success. However, privately, she might be less committed to certain obligations and duties.

cjay011 has a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. He is emotive and hypersensitive, making him especially vulnerable emotionally, since he is sometimes overwhelmed by his feelings and affects. Although he seeks an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom he could maintain blissful, smooth relations, he is sometimes met with disillusionment. Because his rather excessive sensitivity and his need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge his judgment and discernment, so he sometimes forms extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When he meets someone, he falls under the enchantment of his dream of ideal love and cannot keep himself from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, he yields to another of his characteristic urges and loses himself in the individual who is so dear to him, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find himself as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, his psyche is constructed in such a way as to make his sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before he takes on any major commitments, he should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates his intense love, for he may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. Your tendency to believe in your illusions may mark you as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for you to find a different object for your affections, or a form of sublimation, because you tend to be so disappointed by your great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of your imagination procure artistic refinement for you, and you love the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because your sensitivity also makes it easy for you to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties your peers are struggling with, you might also find it rewarding to commit yourself to social work.

cjay011 has a mental and intellect.

cjay011 has a shrewd, inquisitorial mind. He always tries to detect the hidden mechanisms and processes behind the phenomena he observes. As a result, he has developed an ability to detect the truth behind appearances and the cause behind the effect. Although this way of thinking is based on a certain logic, and there is evidence of structure and cohesion in his deductive approach, it is not always purely intellectual. Indeed, its sources lie in a certain empiricism, in facts which have been experienced, so it is open to improvement. For this reason, its fields of application are highly diverse, although research in the hard sciences, psychology, and metaphysics seem to be the best career choices.

cjay011 expresses his thoughts and ideas carefully, but with a relative lack of spontaneity. He is rather introverted and looks inside himself for the solutions to the problems he encounters in life. Because he tends to mistrust customary thought patterns, his opinion is usually highly personal.

cjay011 has an intellectual faculty and wit sometimes slowed down because they are turned inward. Because cjay011 tends to be oriented toward himself, he rarely tries to communicate with others for the simple pleasure of doing so. Indeed, cjay011 sometimes feels misunderstood. Moreover, it seems difficult to cjay011 to express the complexity of his inner perceptions.

cjay011 has a lively and agile spirit, but he tends to apply his mental abilities in a somewhat haphazard and disorderly way. He is curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences with an attitude free of either dogmatism or prejudice. His extremely lively mind leads him to have an opinion on every subject.

Although he enjoys manipulating expressions and concepts and amuses others and himself with witty remarks, his conversations could collapse into argument and conflict.

Because he is often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform his ideas, he is sometimes misunderstood. He is often blind to the rashness of his judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around him. Actually, his overriding need to assert himself as an individual sometimes defeats discussion and prevents him from listening to the other person fairly. But if he were to succeed in disciplining his mind somewhat, he would have innumerable opportunities to apply his communications skills to a great career.

Moreover, he should be careful of his nerves, which are fairly high-strung. Any physical fitness activity would be beneficial; an Eastern discipline such as yoga or Tai-chi-chuan could teach him how to relax and improve control of his nervous and mental energies.