Ayumi Kurihara senses that she has instincts which may be dangerous and she tries to restrain and control them. As a result, she may adopt a fairly ascetic lifestyle. Her attitude, which denies the vital importance of the most archaic and darkest forces within her, is not entirely innocuous. If she hopes for a more harmonious development, she will do well to realize that instincts can be tamed; they do not react positively to being trampled.

You have a paternal complex and, as a result, some trouble finding your place in the world. Perhaps your father or a father figure was absent physically or emotionally during your childhood, which deprived you of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because you might have lacked a particular sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, you were forced to protect yourself against negative influences and find your own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to you as a child, it has now settled into such a degree that it interferes with your evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber your mind or inhibit your developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for you to assert yourself, and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed at yourself rather than others, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself severely, and sometimes punishes yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.

Ayumi Kurihara’s personality and behavior are liable to be disrupted by a contradiction between the masculine and feminine archetypes ruling her psyche. Because her sensitivity is in conflict with her determination, her attitude and performance may sometimes be moody, fluctuating, and uncertain. Usually, she has the feeling she has to make superhuman efforts to succeed in assuaging her yearnings and fulfilling her ambitions. Her unconscious, sensitive side often disapproves of her conscious endeavors and stealthily works to defeat them, causing crucial omissions, mistakes, and gaps which effectively sabotage her plans. In her relationships, the images she builds up and projects on the other are contradictory. As a result, any bond, even if it is pleasant and positive, might also annoy her. She could find it dissatisfying and irritating at the same time.

Ayumi Kurihara is affectionate by nature, and loves playing a decisive and central role in her life. She is a charming person who needs to be loved and be noticed. Aware of her personal magnetism and the power it gives her, she will make subtle changes in herself in order to attract positive attention. She is sophisticated and enjoys living a lifestyle that she sees as a consummate art.

Ayumi Kurihara has great strength of character. Her courage and endurance enable her to accomplish even extremely arduous tasks. Although she sometimes behaves impulsively, she generally knows how to plan out an effective strategy, and, as a result, she reaches her goals without meeting any major obstacles. Her forcefulness gives her certain leadership skills, which she may implement to creative and constructive ends.

Ayumi Kurihara is aware of the void, of the vanity of existence, of the unknowable, unconscious force, and of the power of the life instinct. She is sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by this force, and she often ignores or disparages the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life. She prefers to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as her intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with her “fundamental nature,” Ayumi sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feels an imperious need to cope with it. This special consciousness she has been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought, and may be a source of identity problems for her at the outset. It is not easy for her to recognize herself in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so she sometimes finds herself forced to construct and assert her own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.

Ayumi Kurihara is usually cool and distant in demeanor. She represses her feelings and sensitivity, and avoids the sort of situation where she might be forced to express them. This inhibition is related to a feeling of not having been loved enough. In many cases, to the detriment of her love life, Ayumi is capable of plunging all her energy into her work. She seeks social recognition through her career achievements.

Ayumi Kurihara maintains strong ties with her past, and it often seems difficult for her to open her heart to new people. Her love affairs might exist on the surface level, because her lust and sensual desire rarely turn into a need to understand, protect, and care for the other. Moreover, it is difficult for her to meet partners who combine the ideals of the tender parent and the great lover.

Ayumi Kurihara tries to justify herself to others and gain their approval by showing that she is worthy of their affection. Nevertheless, her pessimism remains, and the severe taboos she unconsciously places on herself sometimes keep her from developing quickly.

Ayumi Kurihara’s sensitivity and emotions are sometimes in conflict with her instincts. This inner discord makes her a fairly complicated relationship partner, and her behavior sometimes strikes others as mysterious or baffling. She is liable to switch from one attitude to the opposite. Sexuality is an important part of her life, and her relationships are most often motivated by her desires. Nevertheless, due to her unconscious inner battle, she does not often succeed in reconciling and fulfilling her emotional and sexual needs. Due to the strength of her instincts, passion may overwhelm her and drag her into situations she cannot always control, which intermingle erotic ecstasy and anguish, guilt, and aggressiveness.

Ayumi Kurihara has a romantic nature and is seeking a soulmate. The world of her emotions is warm and inviting, the expression of true kindness. Tenderness, grace, and mildness rule her sensitivity, which is aroused by contact with nature and thrills to the idea of a secure, stable home.

Ayumi Kurihara’s birth chart indicates that she has an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of her emotional urges and somewhat wary of her feelings, she tries to rid herself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.

According to the aforesaid, it appears that Ayumi Kurihara is more or less torn between her opposing inner tendencies. Although home and hearth are vital to her self-fulfillment, she is plagued with an obsessive emotional dissatisfaction and a fear of insufficient material means. Her sense of duty and organizational skills will enable her to overcome these tendencies. Her career will act as a sublimation without ever totally wiping out her sense of frustration.

Ayumi Kurihara is attracted to overbearing characters and longs to have lots of children.

You have a romantic imagination, soaring with idealism, dreams, and poetry. You are emotive and hypersensitive, making you especially vulnerable emotionally, since you are sometimes overwhelmed by your feelings and affects. Although you seek an ideal soulmate, a partner with whom you could maintain blissful, smooth relations, you are sometimes met with disillusionment. Because your rather excessive sensitivity and your need to merge with the other are deep and powerful enough, they can submerge your judgment and discernment, so you sometimes form extremely intense bonds too quickly with individuals who are not appropriate partners in many ways. When you meet someone, you fall under the enchantment of your dream of ideal love and cannot keep yourself from delighting in a reverie of future romance, placing the other on a pedestal. Early on in the relationship, you yield to another of your characteristic urges and lose yourself in the individual who is so dear to you, melding with them, only to awaken one morning and find yourself as if in the arms of a stranger, greatly astounded and disappointed. Actually, your psyche is constructed in such a way as to make your sensitivity a function of the environment, in many cases; it follows the flow of momentary emotions and impressions. Before you take on any major commitments, you should make a conscious effort to evaluate the relationship realistically, and see whether the person really reciprocates your intense love, for you may merely be in love with the mirage of an ideal partner. Your tendency to believe in your illusions may mark you as an easy prey for people with bad intentions. It would be a good idea for you to find a different object for your affections, or a form of sublimation, because you tend to be so disappointed by your great emotional investments. The delicacy and subtlety of your imagination procure artistic refinement for you, and you love the arts, music, and literature, which could all be good sources of emotional involvement and fulfillment. Because your sensitivity also makes it easy for you to empathize with the psychological or social difficulties your peers are struggling with, you might also find it rewarding to commit yourself to social work.

You are an extremely complex individual, full of contradictions. Because you sometimes feel vulnerable emotionally, you try to control not only your own feelings and urges, but may also strive to manipulate those of your partners. You aspire to a profound and enduring spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning yourself and yielding to the other terrifies you. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because you are guarded and somewhat secretive, you tend to be suspicious and are especially uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although you are fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, you will not express your feelings unless you are subject to some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of your emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, you are likely to be attracted by stormy and complicated relationships.

Ayumi Kurihara is powerfully ruled by her determination and vital needs. Her intellectual abilities come to the forefront when her purpose is to communicate her ideal and plot her action or strategy. She can be both logical and astute, and have gifts for theorizing but may sometimes lack perspective.

Ayumi Kurihara tries to shun subjectivity and be as objective as possible. Her thoughts are usually structured, and her reasoning, based on objective facts or experience, usually relates to practical goals.

You have a lively and agile spirit, but you tend to apply your mental abilities in a somewhat haphazard and disorderly way. You are curious and open-minded, approaching various life experiences with an attitude free of either dogmatism or prejudice. Your extremely lively mind leads you to have an opinion on every subject. Although you enjoy manipulating expressions and concepts and amuses others and yourself with witty remarks, your conversations could collapse into argument and conflict. Because you are often too hasty to formulate and construct the arguments which would back up and inform your ideas, you are sometimes misunderstood. You are often blind to the rashness of your judgments and convinced they are well-founded and objective, which sometimes irritates the people around you. Actually, your overriding need to assert yourself as an individual sometimes defeats discussion and prevents you from listening to the other person fairly. But if you were to succeed in disciplining your mind somewhat, you would have innumerable opportunities to apply your communications skills to a great career. Additionally, you should be careful of your nerves, which are fairly high-strung. Any physical fitness activity would be beneficial; an Eastern discipline such as yoga or Tai-chi-chuan could teach you how to relax and improve control of your nervous and mental energies.

In the formative years of childhood and adolescence, you may have undergone a contradictory situation which prevented you from developing your intellectual and imaginative faculties in a harmonious way. It may be somewhat difficult for you to integrate new ideas and concepts or to give your thought structure and coherence. You may have a distaste for study, which might require a great deal of effort for you. You may harbor feelings of insecurity that are so acute that they may undermine your will and therefore your ability to compete. However, if you overcame these emotions, you would see that you have plenty of marketable skills and that many satisfactory solutions to your feelings of ineptitude and inadequacy are within your reach. Because this psychological complex may be related to childhood or adolescent opposition to parental or academic authority, you may not readily accept people who represent law enforcement agencies or power as an adult. You may display some hostility or vindictiveness toward them as a matter of principle. You should sometimes be careful of what you say.