If you really want to improve and transform yourself, the first step is to become aware of the weaknesses which may be holding you back and preventing your evolution. Aleph Portman-Millepied
Aleph Portman-Millepied sometimes feels a conflict between desire for social and professional success and need for stable and secure domestic life. Although it sometimes seems easier to her to climb the rungs of the career ladder out there in the real world, if she merely sacrifices her domestic life, she is only trying to fool herself. She should accept the fact that her domestic life is the true basis and foundation of her development. All her career endeavors and success will be even more rewarding if they are supported by a safe, warm personal life.
Aleph Portman-Millepied tends to be restless and impatient. Because of this, you often feel the need to put your whole self into transforming society. You have the potential to conceive of radical models for social change, and have shown a desire to spearhead a progressive movement. However, you need to be careful not to impose your ideas on others too forcefully. Only by developing a transpersonal vision of the world can you bring about the lasting change you desire.
To trust yourself better and gain self-assurance, the first thing you must do is to learn to say no. Once you are capable of saying no to others, you can say yes to life. You must develop your awareness of all the good things in your life and all of the changes you hope to make in order to enjoy your life more. This is the foundation that will support you, the inexhaustible source and center of the transformation of your personality. Infantile anxieties which arose in childhood when you were helpless may be obstacles to your evolution. Sometimes they actually prevent you from daring to confront challenges you would be entirely capable of assuming now! One of the reasons you yield to these childhood fears so readily is that they procure a feeling so familiar to you that, although it is negative, it is a reassuring part of your identity. However, the more often you reinforce this complex by yielding to that feeling, the more unaware you become of your true emotional state. The irrational childhood fears have also reinforced your pessimistic tendencies. It is difficult for you to believe in the sunny side of life because of the pernicious little voice inside you that claims you don’t really deserve all this goodness. This side of you could undermine your vitality and force you to compensate or flee from reality. In doing so, you limit your power to bring about a positive change in yourself or your life. It’s a vicious cycle, and to free yourself, the first step is to free yourself from the fears which prevent you from taking full advantage of life. You can succeed if you arrange a relaxed, positive environment for yourself, establish sincere relations with one or two special people, and, if possible, find a setting – perhaps a yoga class – in which you can practice relaxation exercises.