Tayler Holder practices controlling her emotional urges, determined to obtain a superlative grip. Although it is not an easy apprenticeship, she wants to be able to bear strain with patience, endurance, and stamina. More than anyone else, Tayler is aware of the need for a solid and stable foundation as a prerequisite to any effective action.
You are a person who has trouble finding your identity. One reason for this may be that you lacked a paternal figure during your childhood, which deprived you of the patterns or models which are usually helpful in structuring a personality. Because you might have lacked a sense of security which could be provided by a paternal presence, as well as the examples of behavior to follow in confronting the difficulties inherent in every life, you were forced to protect yourself against negative influences and find your own system in order to grow and feel secure. Although this system was quite useful to you as a child, it has now settled in to such a degree that it interferes with your evolution. Psychological defense mechanisms and crutches which were once useful now encumber your mind or inhibit your developmental efforts. As a result, in certain situations, it is difficult for you to assert yourself, and you tend to remain an awkward or passive observer. Because your authoritarian urges are mainly directed at yourself rather than others, you sometimes feel guilty about your behavior. You judge yourself severely, and sometimes punishes yourself by setting difficult tasks for yourself. Gradually, you should build up a strong inner discipline and acquire the strength to face the problems of existence in a detached and mature way.
Tayler Holder is fairly strong-willed, and is mindful of going about her purposes with maximum efficiency. When she relates to other people, Tayler sometimes has trouble expressing her emotions, but she does have a lively sensitivity and is capable of lasting passion. As she grows older, Tayler is quite likely to come into her own and acquire great intellectual and spiritual wisdom. Her honesty, integrity, and sense of duty will win her recognition and appreciation. Passing time will be a very important factor in her destiny, and her greatest accomplishments will guarantee her stability and prosperity. Although Tayler is not especially enterprising, she will move into a high career position as soon as she feels sure of her abilities.
You are an extremely sensitive person who lives in a state of osmosis with your surroundings. Because you didn’t understand how to communicate with your teachers when you were a child, you withdrew into yourself and built a strong inner life. This may have caused problems when you tried to fit into society as an adult. You are not at all combative, and this makes it difficult for you to assert yourself. You prefer to fantasize over reality, but you should realize that by running away from your obligations and commitments, you only make things worse. Once you free yourself from this cycle, you have the potential to do great things in the outer world.
You have an inalienable awareness of the void and the vanity of existence. You are sometimes disoriented and deconstructed by an unknowable, unconscious force and tend to ignore or disparage the superficial pleasures and pains of daily life, preferring to dive into the depths of human experience as deeply as your intellectual, emotional, and spiritual capacities permit. Grappling with your “fundamental nature,” with the deepest and most primitive part of yourself, you are sometimes aghast at the discovery of the sheer power of the life instinct and feels an imperious need to cope with it. This special consciousness you have been endowed with is somewhat beyond the bounds of conventional schools of human understanding and thought and may be a source of identity problems for you at the outset. It is not easy for you to recognize yourself in any social or narcissistic models or identify with any existing roles or attitudes, so you sometimes find yourself forced to construct and assert your own identity on a basis which may impress others with its intensity, if not its eccentricity.
Tayler Holder is hypersensitive, receptive, and able to perceive the parapsychic signals or aura people give off. As a result, she is extremely compassionate and ready to devote herself to their well-being. Her imagination has formulated the dream of an ideal life, and she sometimes feels ill-equipped for the realities of this existence. She tends to dodge difficult situations with her partner.
Tayler Holder’s intellect is lively, agile, and sensitive. However, she does not always avail herself of it and may be confused or irrational in some situations. Although she enjoys playing with words, ideas, and concepts, her thought sometimes lacks discipline and structure. She is fairly preoccupied with details and may tend to waste her nervous and mental energy in futile verbal outpourings. Moreover, her feelings sometimes blur her objective vision of phenomena and people, which may cause her to make errors in judgment.
Tayler Holder tries to express her affections in the most graceful and harmonious way possible. Indeed, she has an innate sense of harmony and strives for a love relationship characterized by balance and perfection. She tends to idealize both her partner and the institution of marriage. Any disillusionment she encounters in the pursuit of her ideal may be experienced as a frustration. Tayler does not always ply her powers of seduction skillfully.
Tayler Holder’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of her emotional urges and somewhat wary of her feelings, she tries to rid herself of all partiality and try to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.
Tayler Holder is frail and prone to errors in judgment. She is often unable to distinguish between true and false, between the love of prestige and her feelings of compassion and pity. Tayler Holder is liable to sacrifice her own ambitions to contribute to a partner’s glory without receiving much in return, or she may smother them under the weight of her own aspirations. Tayler Holder would do well to gain more insight into herself before making a commitment.
Tayler Holder is tempted to dominate those who attract her. Doubtless she has experienced tumultuous love affairs, and more are in store for her, because she yields entirely once her feelings are aroused. In her eyes, a relationship should be a stable balance of emotional fulfillment and sensual satisfaction to be truly rewarding.
Tayler Holder is a passionate and ardent character who finds great pleasure in relationships. Her relationships are full of intensity and passion, and she’s often more in love with the idea of love than with her partners themselves. As a result, her love life is often subject to some instability. She is generally attracted to people who defy norms, standards, and classifications, and are amazed and fascinated by her. Love is often a matter of luck with her, and even when a relationship falls apart, she doesn’t see it as a failure or a tragedy. She seems to learn valuable lessons from her mistakes. Her emotional intensity contributes positively and efficiently to her evolution. On the other hand, her sensitivity predisposes her to original and subtle tastes, and she is so receptive to beauty and attached to concepts of truth and balance that they may all combine to yield remarkable creative potential.
Tayler Holder has a great emotional ideal, full of subtlety and tenderness. However, she tends to be overwhelmed by her imagination and may not be selective enough when choosing a partner. Her romantic and trusting nature may make her vulnerable. Although she strives to establish peaceful, uncomplicated relations, she sometimes experiences painful disappointments. Her artistic delicacy and refinement provide her with a sincere love of the arts, music, and literature. She is likely to be a gifted poet.
You are an extremely complex individual, full of contradictions. Because you sometimes feel vulnerable emotionally, you try to control not only your own feelings and urges, but may also strive to manipulate those of your partners. You aspire to a profound and enduring spiritual unity, but at the same time, the idea of abandoning yourself and yielding to the other terrifies you. This anguish may be a source of rather extreme behavior patterns and a somewhat self-focused attitude which could damage the relationship. Because you are guarded and somewhat secretive, you tend to be suspicious and are especially uneasy about spontaneous intimacy, although you are fascinated by sexuality. Within the privacy of the couple, you will not express your feelings unless you are subject to some tension. Life may be peppered with frequent crises and feuds, arguments and spats which usually act as erotic provocation. This derivation of eroticism from anxiety tends to be one of the fundamental characteristics of your emotional and sexual functioning. As a result, you are likely to be attracted by stormy and complicated relationships.
Tayler Holder has a fairly skeptical temperament which relies on remarkable analytic and critical faculties. She is sensitive and curious, a keen observer of facts who collects detailed information she will later pore over and analyze. This type of logical, rational mind is extremely efficient for elaborating methods or sorting and classifying information. However, she sometimes lacks flexibility or broad-mindedness.
Tayler Holder does not express her thoughts and ideas smoothly or easily. She tends to be subjective, seeking to know herself better through a process of introversion.
Tayler Holder’s intellectual faculties and wit are sometimes slowed down because they are turned outward. Because Tayler tends to be oriented toward others, she rarely tries to communicate with them for the simple pleasure of doing so. Indeed, Tayler sometimes feels misunderstood. Moreover, it seems difficult to Tayler to express the complexity of her inner perceptions.