Malalai Joya became aware of her weaknesses and began to work on transforming herself. She began to eat less, to be more willing to change, and to be more optimistic.
You sometimes feel a conflict between your desire for social and professional success and your need for a stable, secure domestic life. You are deeply committed to both ideas and often find it difficult to reconcile their schedules and demands on you. Sometimes it feels as though you will never be able to find a balance. However, no job promotion will really satisfy you if you have neglected your most intimate needs and desires. Although it sometimes seems easier to you to climb the rungs of the career ladder out there in the real world, if you merely sacrifice your domestic life, you are only trying to fool yourself. You should accept the fact that your domestic life is the true basis and foundation of your development. All your career endeavors and success will be even more rewarding if they are supported by a safe, warm personal life.
For you, healthy emotional development will require a conscious effort, because you are still the captive of sensations that have never been clarified, and, as a result, your sensitivity cannot really blossom fully. Although you seek close relationships and intimacy with people you trust to give you love and support, you sometimes feel alienated from other people and may withdraw into a remote bubble. Were you to open yourself fully to the world of relations with others, by the means of continual, subtle changes, you could prepare yourself for a total metamorphosis of your destiny. Both your sensitivity and your relationships would have access to a new path, more altruistic, open, and dedicated to others.