Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:
Hali’a Beamer is trying to overcome her feelings of insecurity. To do so, she needs a home: a dwelling, a territory, or perhaps a safe space or setting where she can rest, and let down her systems of defense against the outer world, which she finds aggressive and hostile. She is ready to make some sacrifices in order to maintain and consolidate the structure she has chosen. True inner security, based on real knowledge of herself, her abilities, and her shortcomings, her strengths and her weaknesses would no doubt be most effective and would allow her to remain open to the varieties of experience offered by the world.
Hali’a Beamer is affectionate by nature, and love plays a decisive and central role in her life. She is a charmer who needs to love and be loved. Aware of her personal magnetism and the power it gives her, she will make subtle changes in herself in order to attract positive attention. She is sophisticated and pleased to savor a lifestyle she sees as a consummate art.
Hali’a Beamer does not always feel in tune with society’s rules and conventions. The mask of sociability most well-adapted people wear is difficult for Hali’a to assume, and it is hard for Hali’a to act out the roles expected of Hali’a as a normal member of the community. The usual social values and rewards, like money, respect, and prestige, only mildly interest Hali’a. Hali’a’s refusal or inability to play the social game may make it hard for Hali’a to find a job, which may have negative consequences on Hali’a’s financial and legal status. Reluctant and unwilling to adapt to the demands of social life, Hali’a sometimes unwittingly makes mistakes when a new project is in the planning stages. For example, Hali’a may leave gaps in a job application, botch up an interview with a prospective employer, or make a big mistake when bidding for a contract. But Hali’a’s financial difficulties may clear up when Hali’a’s emotional ones do.
Hali’a Beamer is sober and rather reserved and may even strike people as harsh and austere at times. Perhaps Hali’a was raised in an atmosphere of rigor and sobriety, and, as a result, grew up very fast. Hali’a has acquired a spirit of self-sufficiency, tends to be rather uncompromising, and has a touchy sense of personal dignity and worth. It is almost as though Hali’a is fighting an inner battle with a father figure. The psychological models Hali’a received from a father figure as a result of interaction and Hali’a’s own interaction with authority may not have played a major role in shaping Hali’a’s relationships with the outer world and society. Hali’a may thus have been forced to compensate for this lack with individual determination.
As a result, although Hali’a is skillful, meticulous, conscientious, and efficient, a lack of self-confidence and personal assurance sometimes makes Hali’a timid and hesitant. Hali’a sometimes feels as though Hali’a is only masquerading as a respectable, sober adult. Hali’a tends to be far too critical of Hali’a self and rarely feels satisfied that Hali’a is living up to Hali’a ideal. These unnecessary guilt feelings may lead Hali’a to turn down the prominent career positions for which Hali’a is fully qualified. Hali’a is aware that early success is often short-lived and fragile and that time rewards those who know how to be patient and persistent, like Hali’a.
Hali’a Beamer has a profound and fertile inner life and a prolific imagination, but their energy resources are not always sufficient to follow through on and accomplish their multitude of dreams. They tend to live in osmosis with their environment, and effort and action take a heavy toll on them. Usually, they understand phenomena and events intuitively, without really making any effort; so they are not in the habit of disciplining or shaping their thought processes. Like their thoughts, their personality is rather amorphous and disorganized. As a result of this lack of structure, they may have some trouble asserting their individuality and making some personal contribution to society through their career. Their tendency to shut out reality and dream impossible dreams, like their refusal of responsibility and duty, may be a source of some difficulty for them.
Adaptation and Sensitivity:
Freedom and independence are primary values for Hali’a Beamer. They expend a great deal of energy to ensure that their private life expresses them. To avoid being tied down, they tend to be skittish when it comes to any profound involvement in a relationship. As a consequence, they might intellectualize their emotions and feelings and feel as though they can live more easily on friendship than on love. Extremely socially-minded but idealistic, they almost certainly feel an affinity with the ideals of some social reform movement. Their imagination looks to the future.
Due to extreme sensitivity and an irrepressible imagination, Hali’a Beamer sometimes has trouble distinguishing dreams from reality. Although bubbling imagination provides an abundant source of inspiration for creative or spiritual evolution, it tends to be less helpful and positive in matters that concern self-assertion as responsible and self-sufficient. Although psychic faculties drive Beamer to fulfill themselves through artistic activities like painting, drawing, music, or poetry, it may be difficult to market talents in terms of a career. In a relationship, Beamer is extremely romantic and does not always see others the way they really are. Because of a tendency to idealize people, Beamer may be disappointed when their true natures are eventually betrayed.
Hali’a Beamer does not always readily reveal herself, and she tends to protect her sensitivity. She has a penchant for intense emotions. Sexuality is a prominent element in her life, and her relationships, which are usually passionate, are motivated by her desires. She likes to understand the hidden side of people, their secret or unconfessed motivations. She would thus find a career which placed her in contact with troubled people especially rewarding.
Love and Sensuality:
Hali’a Beamer’s personality is dominated by love and affectivity. She is subject to love at first sight, and her gallant heart sometimes leaps forth impulsively; her sensitivity is lively and powerful. Amorous rivalries and conquests may be a recurring theme throughout her life.
Hali’a Beamer’s birth chart indicates an emotional function which is usually expressed carefully and reasonably. Distrustful of Beamer’s emotional urges and somewhat wary of Beamer’s feelings, Beamer tries to rid Beamer of all partiality and tries to get some perspective and distance before making an emotional commitment.
Vivacious and spontaneous, Hali’a Beamer is quite outspoken and frank. She enjoys provoking surprise and may develop an exhibitionist side. Encounters of friendships with uncommon people or in unusual circumstances play a great role in her life. She is quite independent and is unlikely to settle down permanently, unless she finds a talented mate who loves and understands her as a friend and equal.
Passionate and idealistic, Hali’a Beamer has little desire to live out her relationships according to society’s rules and customs. She is also attracted to people with original or eccentric personalities – artists, intellectuals, adventurers: all promising a relationship that is far from banal. However, she will prove better at friendship than at sensuality which could quickly tire her.
Hali’a Beamer may be characterized by strong sensual and affectionate urges which drive them to seek pleasure. Their need for romantic fulfillment may compel them to marry, because they also seek the legal and social legitimacy the institution of marriage confers on an emotional bond. Indeed, the household is liable to be prosperous and even opulent, as if this offered further evidence that they had indeed achieved success. However, privately, they might be less committed to certain obligations and duties. At worst, they might deny the commitments that their optimism and expansiveness made them rush into too soon. If this were to be the case, the outward image of the couple’s success (wealth and comfort, etc.) would only be a façade which compensated for its emotional impoverishment and failure. Sooner or later, this hypocrisy might provoke a full-blown conflict. A second possibility is that a psychic incompatibility may gradually take root, pitting their romantic nature against the prerogatives of their career.
Hali’a Beamer is hypersensitive and tends to relive the anxieties, apprehensions, and romantic absolutes of her first love relationships, which occurred around the ages of 13-14 years or 20-21 years. Hali’a Beamer is exquisitely sensitive, but almost completely barricaded behind a layer of aloofness. Hali’a Beamer will not settle for anything less than eternal commitment, total harmony, and absolute loyalty. Hali’a Beamer is sometimes presumed to be cold, even by those close to her. Hali’a Beamer usually hides her emotional reactions or does not even allow them to reach the level of her consciousness, in an effort to protect her sensitivity, which she sees as her weak point. Hali’a Beamer is fairly vulnerable, even in the intimacy of a stable and established relationship. Usually, Hali’a Beamer will disguise her strong feelings as a kind of possessiveness or even jealousy. Certain misfortunes may arouse a negative emotional state inside Hali’a Beamer, and she feels unworthy of the love which is lavished on her. This psychological prohibition which rules over all of her desires and affects should loosen with the passage of time; likewise, her fear of approaching the other will diminish. As a result, the second part of her romantic life will be more rewarding. In any case, if Hali’a Beamer wants to experience a harmonious love relationship and gratify herself emotionally, the defense mechanisms she has elaborated to make herself inaccessible to others will have to be dismantled. Any profound relationship will also require that Hali’a Beamer learns how to forget herself occasionally in the other.
Hali’a Beamer has a great emotional ideal, full of subtlety and tenderness. However, Hali’a tends to be overwhelmed by Hali’a’s imagination and may not be selective enough when choosing a partner. Hali’a’s romantic and trusting nature may make Hali’a vulnerable. Although Hali’a strives to establish peaceful, uncomplicated relations, Hali’a sometimes experiences painful disappointments. Hali’a’s artistic delicacy and refinement provide Hali’a with a sincere love of the arts, music, and literature. Hali’a is likely to be a gifted poet.
Mental and Intellect:
Hali’a Beamer is an intuitive thinker. She does not reason things out through a long, articulate, logical discourse; instead, she seizes the visions or insights that spontaneously flash into her consciousness. She thus has a form of immediate knowledge of various phenomena which is based neither on reasoning nor on any elaborate thought process or method. As a result, if Hali’a Beamer is an extrovert, she will possess an inventive, innovative spirit gifted for improvisation. If Hali’a Beamer is an introvert, her mind will be an abundant source of personal inner truths.
Hali’a Beamer expresses her thoughts and ideas carefully, but with a relative lack of spontaneity. Hali’a is rather introverted and looks inside herself for the solutions to the problems she encounters in life. Because Hali’a tends to mistrust customary thought patterns, her opinion is usually highly personal.