There is a fundamental contradiction or opposition at the core of Connor Ball’s personality, but it does not shatter his integrity. However, it causes his inner world to be complex, divided, or even torn, without ever being totally dissociated, because every thought and action is a source of unification. As a result, Connor is a talented syncretist. He is able to see the link between heterogeneous and diverse elements which do not appear to be related in the least. He can bring about surprising reconciliation, create unexpected bonds, combine beliefs which seem mutually incompatible.
Connor’s imaginative powers also flow from the division in his psyche and are evidenced by inspirations, visions, and abilities which exceed the context of logic and reasoning. He allows himself to be guided by irrational phenomena like foreshadowing or premonitions, which well up from the depths of his being. He is more of a medium than an intuitive, because intuition requires a clear consciousness of reality. He is borne along by currents and tides of knowledge and live in symbiosis with forces which overwhelm him. In fact, it is because of this relative passivity that Connor is more or less a medium, because he wishes merely to perceive what surrounds him; he has no wish to impose his will. Although this attitude endows Connor with great potential for productivity, it may also become dangerous, if he finds himself overpowered by forces he can never totally control. Connor tends to perceive things as undifferentiated; he does not always see the world as an organized, structured, hierarchical entity. Instead, Connor is sensitive to energy flows, to invisible forces which he perceives and try to interpret. Connor’s consciousness knows no bounds, and he does not feel confined by either space or time. But the image of the infinite imprinted on Connor’s imagination has a tendency to manifest itself with a lack of definition, in most of Connor’s thoughts and acts.
In relation to other people, Connor usually demonstrates warmth and humanism. Connor is a fairly pleasant companion, although Connor’s sensitivity can be annoying at times. Connor tends to identify with Connor’s friends to a great degree, instead of remaining apart and empathetic. In fact, Connor is capable of losing himself in another person at times. Connor should take time to reflect upon the quality of what Connor bestows on others and on whom Connor bestows it. Connor would doubtless come to the conclusion that Connor’s devotion is motivated by guilt feelings; Connor’s giving is a way of escaping from himself, and Connor’s broad tolerance sometimes merely hides a weak character. Connor’s basic aptitude for compassion could inspire Connor to relieve human misery, either privately or professionally. Hospital or prison work would not frighten Connor, because Connor understands them as closed environments which are open in terms of the inner adventures and journeys they house. Inner adventures are one thing Connor understands.
In Connor’s ideal, Connor feels capable of easing the worst suffering, but sometimes as Connor helps others overcome their problems, Connor is also trying to face up to Connor’s collective unconscious – that is, the final product of all Connor’s failures to assert himself, from childhood right up to adulthood. Because of Connor’s hypersensitivity, Connor is a fairly delicate person. Connor tends to go through sorrowful or depressive phases, long psychic tunnels where Connor’s anguishes lurk. Connor would be wise to withstand them instead of trying to escape. If Connor could detect what triggered Connor’s lack of confidence in Connor’s unconscious, Connor might be healed.
Connor Ball is sensual. Pleasure is important to Connor Ball.
Connor Ball’s psychological, metaphysical, or occult interests are signs of Connor Ball’s need to transform or change Connor Ball, which might arouse some apprehension in Connor Ball.
At the time of Connor Ball’s birth, his rising sign was located in Libra (the Scales), while the sun was passing through the sign of Pisces (the Fish). A summary of the various clues mentioned above provide his personality profile. The following key words capture the essence of his character and indicate certain contradictions which may be sources of tension:
Sociability – Emotionalism – Adaptability – Pliancy – Emotion – Humility and reserve – Tolerance – Idealism – Peaceful disposition – Sense of harmony – Intuition – Worldliness – Premonition.
Connor Ball is torn by a deep inner conflict between his intellectual, rational, methodical side and a more romantic, emotional, sensitive tendency. His spontaneous urges and feelings are often restrained by his fussy, perfectionist reasoning; his idealistic ambitions and fantasies are stopped short by the moral and social considerations imposed by his intellect.
Conversely, his analytical skills and critical judgments might be at odds with his emotionalism and impressionability. He must work to make these two influences mutually comprehensible, to achieve, upon maturity, a well-balanced personality enriched by opposing elements. The most promising way to resolve the conflict is by moderating his sensitivity, developing his decision-making capacities, and channeling his energy. Without stifling his intuition and imagination, he must be wary of his tendency to escape into a dream world.
Born in the seven to ten days after the full moon rose, Connor Ball is of the “last quarter” lunar type. As a result, their personality is fairly independent and self-sufficient. Their ideas are original and often bold, but, to their dismay, do not often garner a majority of followers.
Their sense of humor is their best communications tool, but they often switch to a more severe tone which breaks their charm over their audience, and their methods do not always please the masses.
Their lack of flexibility hinders their strategies and projects, and they would gain by developing their sense of diplomacy and tact. Although they are not unduly attached to success, because they are so used to being ahead of their time, their failures take a psychological toll on them. Because each setback wears them down a little more, they should try to avoid further disappointments by conforming to contemporary reality a little more closely.