If you are really interested in improving yourself, the first step is to become aware of the weaknesses which may be holding you back and preventing your evolution. These could be things like your perfectionism, tendency to hyperfocus on minutiae, over intellectualization, and comfort with a constant state of worry.
You sometimes feel conflicted about your desire for social and professional success and your need for a stable, secure domestic life. You are deeply committed to both ideas and find it difficult to reconcile their schedules and demands on you. Sometimes it feels as though you will never be able to find a balance. However, no job promotion will really satisfy you if you have neglected your most intimate needs and desires. Although it sometimes seems easier to you to climb the rungs of the career ladder out there in the real world, if you merely sacrifice your domestic life, you are only trying to fool yourself. You should accept the fact that your domestic life is the true basis and foundation of your development. All your career endeavors and success will be even more rewarding if they are supported by a safe, warm personal life.