Ambika Pillai has a complex personality. She is stirred with contradictory impulses and desires, some of them imperious. Although her rational mind is highly developed and seems to be the source of motivation for her behavior, the most significant realm of her psychology is her subconscious. Therein, a conflict between understanding and feeling is raging, between the psychological functions of thought and sensation (C.G. Jung’s terms). Until this conflict subsides, she might feel a sensation of emptiness. She is troubled by and unable to explain this feeling, which leads her to adopt an attitude of doubt and skepticism. This conflict, and its various repercussions, are the main obstacle to her individuation. Her task consists of becoming the master of the energies of her subconscious, and developing her consciousness in terms of the hidden and invisible. Her evolution will occur through a series of metamorphoses and rebirths. However, at certain points in her life, despite her caution and clear thinking, she finds herself in situations she neither desired nor planned, as a result of explosions and eruptions of the elements fermenting in her psyche. She always survives the worst physical, emotional, or intellectual tests, however, fairly unscathed, because of her ability to be reborn and start afresh. As a partner, she might struggle to make compromises. She may appear frosty and distant at times, and she has a taste for challenging, provocative remarks. With herself, as well as with others, she is sometimes excessive and complicated. In a discussion, she will express strong, honest opinions. In crisis situations, she wishes for her efforts to be noticed. She is obsessed with the problem of death. She tends to believe it holds the secret of life – that death can be overcome. Sometimes her anxiety about death is expressed as a search for answers – how can one learn to live with death, how can one detach oneself from the past and its flesh-curdlingly morbid realities… Decay, immobility, ultimate delivery – these images, which are all symbolically associated with death, sometimes haunt her. Intellectually, she has powerfully developed intellectual faculties which yield the maximum effectiveness for her behavior. Deductive, analytical, prospective, she is at once a researcher, a detective, and a scientist. She is fairly introverted, and her discrimination tends to direct her toward the spheres of inner life. She is astute at drawing rational parallels between phenomena of different origins. Her love life will be subject to desire and passion. But since she is more aroused by
Ambika Pillai thrives in the peace and security of the nest. Her spouse and family will be an important part of her life.
Ambika Pillai has a sense of selfless duty and devotion to work. Work is one of the most important aspects of life for her.
At the time of your birth, your rising sign was located in Aquarius (the Water Bearer), while the sun was passing through the sign of Scorpio (the Scorpion). A summary of the various clues mentioned above provide your personality profile. The following key words capture the essence of your character and indicate certain contradictions which may be sources of tension: Independence – Pugnacity – Rebelliousness – Charisma – Originality – Dignity – Fluctuation – Shrewdness – Irritability – Concentration – Inventive spirit – Optimism – Sense of paradox – Common sense. You have a straightforward, independent, and domineering personality. You swim against the current, battling preconceived notions, unruffled and nonchalant when your behavior shocks or offends. You are a seeker of originality in all things, a traveler of the road less traveled. Free and confident with your intellectual independence, you will devote yourself entirely to your professional life, investing it with all your imagination and power. Your qualities of insight, inventiveness and your curiosity drive you to investigate behind the scenes, to look beyond appearances and presentations. You could apply these intellectual skills in such different fields as medicine, detective work, or history.
Ambika Pillai was born three and a half to seven days after the rising of the new moon, a “soli-lunar” configuration indicating that she may need to make an effort to free herself from the past. Something related to her childhood, parents, or ancestors is holding her back, impairing her effectiveness and could stand to be overcome. Due to her past, she refuses tried-and-true models, is always fighting to justify her innovative viewpoints, and tends to break away from tradition. She is hardly ever aware that she is making career and lifestyle choices which are based on an urge to modify her relationship to society, and the rigid standards and models from the past.